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Backwards Arrows

Learning to Love Backwards

When you are vulnerable and helpless, that’s when it becomes crucial who comes into your life. Once you’re under someone else’s care, the reality that

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Die VI

Grand Auto Return

Verse One Never mind that you a kid/Think it’s a joke til’ you get rigged/What track you think it’s racist/When they lock you into cages/And

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Nerved hand

You Got the Nerve to Love

44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. 45 So that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. Matt 5:44 ESV

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Paradigm

The Prototype of your fatherhood

On this Father’s Day, I have much to give honor to. I have much to be thankful for. I say this with care as I acknowledge this is a hard day for many, for many reasons. I am filled with love and gratitude only because of the everflowing love that God has shown me over the years through continual healing. So, Lord, I thank You first that You have loved me so very well to the depths of my soul and all this has been made possible by Your son Jesus Christ…

I love my father Anthony. I’ve come to understand not only who he was to me (good and bad) but really who he was destined to be. Life, parenthood, and marriage will do that to you if you let it. It will- give you a clear perspective. Moreover Jesus will do that for you, He will open up this perspective in the context of freedom.

But this post is really about my husband, my friend, who I have vowed to love unconditionally- James Richardson. James, to see you grow into a man over the last decade has been a journey as it has been for you to experience me growing into a woman. Witnessing your growth in fatherhood has been a critical component of my healing and has given me hope. We came to parenthood with ambition and limitations. And while this paradox often gets the best of us, His faithfulness has sustained you. 

“I will heal their waywardness

    and love them freely,

    for my anger has turned away from them.”

Hosea 14:4

Your love for Julia is a reflection of your God-shaped identity James. You are brilliant, patient, creative, tender, joyful, and most importantly you are resilient. These attributes show themselves strong in your interactions with Julia. I have learned much from you. I think of you often when I discern how to parent Julia. Your youthfulness and intellect shine in her so strongly. 

I find it no coincidence that Julia was born on Father’s Day June 21, 2015. Julia is God’s gift to you James to show you what beauty He has channeled through you. 

Your love for Julia is a reflection of your God-shaped identity James.

Shandra Richardson

We are only 6 years into parenthood. The best of your years are yet to come my love.

19 For I have chosen him so that he will direct his children and his household after him to keep the way of the Lord by doing what is right and just so that the Lord will bring about for Abraham what he has promised him.” Genesis 18:19

Psalm 112

Praise the Lord.

Blessed are those who fear the Lord,

    who find great delight in his commands.

Their children will be mighty in the land;

    the generation of the upright will be blessed.

No Dear, the Buck Doesn’t Stop There

Deer Senses

Boy is everyone a critic nowadays? Maybe it’s just me, or maybe it’s social media. Expressing ourselves for many often come with a condescending tone, and any take not consistent with the norm is met with shame. Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been privileged to watch a documentary by Tariq Nasheed, “Buck Breaking” that journeys through the sexual exploitation of Blacks in America and abroad; and the generational trauma it has left in the Black Community. Now before I get into my review, let me give praise to all those who were involved as I found this piece to be phenomenal work.

This wasn’t the first documentary I watched from Tariq. I remember vividly when I watched Hidden Colors after hearing about it from word of mouth. There was heightened spiritual activity at that time and for better or for worse, very little has changed today. I won’t make this blog long so I will make highlights on the things I appreciated the most about the film.

  1. In High Definition: The video did it’s best to bring the concept of buck-breaking to different spheres; sexual, political, physical, economical, etc. Bringing awareness to the totality of Buck Breaking can help tackle the social oppressions peculiar to the US and abroad.
  2. Historically Informative: As depressing and repulsive America’s past can be, there were some gems I found in this documentary that I didn’t know of myself. For the record, I won’t give any spoilers. You’d have to watch the film yourself.
  3. Call to restoring Black Dignity: To make a country that is a melting pot work, there needs to be common values and principles. What I began to see in this documentary was a brief overview of how to repair the damage done to the Black family. Of course there are many other issues and solutions that will need to be discussed but kudos to embedding ideas within the parameters of the film.
  4. Controlling the Narrative: There’s nothing like being told your History by those who look like you. Unfortunately, in this world, stories are slighted to favor the tribes who tell it. All to often, Blacks have been gaslighted as far as acknowledging the damage done to them an the need for justice and reparations in the community.
  5. Distinguishing the fight for civil rights: too often Black Rights are lumped together with other groups and is chastised when Blacks try to bring their issues to the spotlight. While I believe in making alliances and doing what is best for all, Blacks are not a monolith; special attention is needed to bring justice to the Black Community as their oppression is unique in America.

I bring these points together as I believe Black Liberation, LGBTQ and women’s rights, all have their place in the Gospel narrative; and for the work of reconciliation to thrive, every problem should be taken in consideration; a long and complex assignment for Christ’s servants. It remains to be seen where certain injustices actually originated from. I look forward as God’s will unfolds, to facilitate uncovering these narratives to the glory of Jesus; not in a mere general sense that looks only to the scriptures, but experiencing its supernatural power relevant today and for ages to come.

In closing my love, this movie is an important Blockbuster for the next phase in America’s History. Yes it is controversial, and it will take level-headedness to hear the matters and distinguish facts from biased opinion. Much healing is needed for those of us who speak out of deep hurt and brokenness. There will be plenty of people casting stones Bam Bam, so don’t let that cause you to lose your resolve. And don’t worry about me. Doesn’t matter how much I’m hemmed in, the LORD will see to the cleaning of the sewage. May God break the curses of dysfunction, poverty, and injustice in our world.

As always, until next time…

I love you.



The Second Letter of James

Book of James

Chapter One

1 James, messenger of Jesus according to the Revelation of the Father, 2 To Judas, my beloved child; and to the saints scattered across the US and abroad: 3 Receive my friendliest welcome.
4 The times have come where ungratefulness abounds while selfishness persists; 5 as was spoken by the apostles and prophets, 6 but to you I commend to Judah, for you have found worship and meekness in the darkness.
7 For this I am in debt to God for you, giving thanks in hope to see the day our souls are knit in one. 8 Even as many of you have cried during the current crisis, 9 I have shared them for the hope of comfort.10 Only remember the beacon that is the center of our expectation – Jesus – who is the light of our world.11 Pray to him while you communicate with us; 12 be authentic and make realness your lifestyle. 13 And as we journey together along this tapestry of truth, 14 we’ll find our love for God growing – even as he loves and sanctifies us. 15 For we all are sinners who were made righteous by his blood; 16 by which we lie down in the heavens, 17 covered by the stars even as he fights all of our battles. 18 Those that are in Him shall be raised with Christ forever. 19 So then Judas, feed upon these truths to be made strong again, 20 and help others to share in the same grace. 21 Find men worthy to receive the mysteries of the gospel; 22 who will not shrink back in times of suffering.

Chapter Two

1 Who has saved us through the power of His word? 2 Who has enlightened the blind through His majestic appearance? 3 He heralds the Truth as an Angel and Teacher. 4 Do not run from suffering His news! There is nothing to be ashamed of. 5 Do not feel sad when they disassemble themselves and show love, but not with sincerity. 6 Such men preach the gospel, but not with an upright heart. 7 Know a person by their true nature by watching what they do while keeping your heart. 8 For why should you deceive yourself in your discernment of others? 9 And why should you speak against the LORD in which my servants speak? 10 It is not futile to be joined to those who serve Christ. 11 But there are those who prosper in their iniquity. Abstain from participating in their corruption. 12 Speak in the ears of those who fear the LORD. Be doers of the word together in unity. 13 Now just as a gourd is used as instruments in the house, 14 there are actions that will cause you to be fruitful, while others hollow. 15 Be sure you are filled with the goodness of Christ. 16 For God will give you a harvest that you neither worked for or cultivated. 17 It shall spring in the dark hours and provide nourishment to all around you. 18 I speak to the kings; may the Spirit of God rest upon you. 19 And walk illuminated with insight and prudence. 20 You shall repel the spells of the sorcerer and astrologer and in everything you shall excel. 21 Don’t be surprised when you are brought before princes and rulers to be interrogated. 22 Be patient and humble, for the LORD is the keeper of the times and will preserve your temple. 23 The writing is on the wall; the writing is on the wall. Listen to me children, I find delight in you. 24 Though I disappear in darkness, I am still near you. 25 For clouds cannot destroy the sun, neither can any imagination of man. 26 Seek the providence of God and he will fill your soul to your appetite’s desire.

Chapter Three

1 Be aware children, that in the midst of perils, times of restoration will come in the last days. 2 For as God loves the world, people will love themselves filling their storehouses with the treasure of charity. 3 They shall wax self-confident in Christ and boast in the LORD; destroying every lofty thing opposed to DIVINE KNOWLEDGE. 4 No longer shall they listen to the wicked advice of their ancestors, but they will learn the law of Christ. 5 Contentment for mediocracy and evil shall no longer be commended and thanks shall be given to God for the power to overcome. 6 Piety shall no longer be practiced in pretense. It shall be developed in the light of God’s Word. 7 Be sure that you walk in a way consistent with holiness; 8 For impurity will lead you to a shrewd God. 9 Find yourself productive in everything that is good. 10 Know right from wrong; falsehood from truth. 11 You will walk in the delight of Christ in this way. 12 Things that are lawful are helpful for instruction, but do not rely on them. 13 The LORD will place His laws within your heart and in your mind according to the Covenant. 14 And you will dwell in the upper room with the LORD. 15 You will feast and learn things that have been sealed away by the Spirit. 16 For the Spirit only reveals what Christ speaks to His church.

Chapter Four

1 Have you sinned by failing to do what you ought to do? 2 Don’t listen to any spirit that doesn’t confess Jesus as LORD. 3 I eagerly write this to you as the faith will be attacked by those who don’t share in the Regeneration. 4 Be strong in God, and you will take the Devil by the tail. 5 You shall overcome, and cross into God’s garden with the rest of Israel. 6 You shall go into your house safely and none shall rob nor plunder you. 7 Be sure to dwell in the light of God. 8 Set a table for those who have no place to eat. 9 By doing this, you save them from the anger of God. 10 Even the Devil who shows no mercy, deceives and destroys his prey. 11 My love, you have honed your speech to be as juice from the plant. 12 It is like chains upon my neck; a flowing fragrance that kisses down my spine. 13 In the presence of God I let my guard down. 14 We can chill near the oasis, 15 for the LORD comes soon for His bride. 16 Let those who fear hope assiduously.

Chapter Five

1 We are not as widows whose Husband failed to care for or leave an inheritance. 2 We have a Savior who is opening the gates of righteousness. 3 If you set this example among the women, you will do well. 4 Be sure to surround yourself with men of valor who are not afraid of death. 5 In your fellowship, make it your aim to please God in everyway. 6 Not that you aren’t already doing this, but that you find yourself in the righteousness of Christ. 7 For we would have you receive recompense for what he’s done for you on the day of judgment. 8 Those who are arrogant will be plundered and extorted. 9 Had they not boasted against the children of God, the LORD would have relented. 10 Listen! O man; who denies Christ while summoning your gods. 11 Both you and your idols will kneel before the LORD in His day. 12 And the brothers who you reveled with shall perish by the sword. 13 Beware of judging, lest you are brought before the Judge; 14 who rules over kings for His glory. 15 He will test whether the spirit of God is upon you. 16 Wisdom comes to those who hear God’s word; 17 he gives interpretations and common sense to those who lack direction. 18 Now then, shall I gar her to act as my wife? 19 Let me gather the meg and peppers, the syrup and honey. 20 I will prepare a holy picnic saith the LORD, 21 And my elect shall enjoy the finest of feasts.

Of Spec’d Inventory

Modern House Project

My first exposure to architectural plans was draft class in high school. I remembered having difficulty sketching straight and consistent lines in this class (blame it on being left-handed.) All I knew was that I struggled with the craft, but I loved the struggle and wouldn’t mind pursuing this as a career. That was until music shot its arrow to my heart. Man is cupid one heck of a ballerina! If you’ve scene her then you’d get the picture.

Getting the Play Right

So many of us chase blockbusters as role-models; the course it gives us is what we deem the blueprint of success. We run the race, not prepared for the many obstacles we face; the opponents — some who are considered friends — all take sport in watching us fail. Thank God for Tyler Perry, who in his great feat this week changed the game for aspiring creatives everywhere. I hope we all will be inspired to dance through all the setbacks the enemy puts before us.

As I reach coming of age, I am becoming more aware of a system not conducive for safe and organic growth. In addition, divisiveness still ravishes our world where injustice multiplies. Ancient one! Do you see the importance of encouraging polymaths? It maybe that people have several passions, some untapped due to responsibilities. If we saw the art of martialism when building communities, we wouldn’t need to defend Qi Da Vinci.

Cataloging Backlogs

Truth is, I really want to do everything. Like learn and try new things in faith. Truth is, a rich store of abundance rests within us all through Christ. This is what I am most geeked about! Consider it my idèe fixe. But cursed be the son who steals the purse.

“A good person out of his good treasure brings forth good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure brings forth evil. ~ Mat 12:35”

THE RENAISSANCE

I challenge you to an duel uno. Let’s tally out our good qualities and record future projections of shared success. For example: If you are longing for your dream job, craft an artificial resumè showing that you’ve already worked there. If you wish to be an entrepreneur, manufacture a balance sheet showing your expenses and net profits. etc. Document them and encourage each other to realize our goals. Too often we hide or fail to pursue our dreams because of fear of failure, exploitation, and ridicule. I know because I face it too. Let’s kick fear to the curb! Punch out violence from our streets. Let us all grow peace in our neighborhoods while this vision crystalizes.

…And eventually I’ll reveal to you the number of businesses I’ve been working on. All of them — from Jay to Z.

By wisdom a house is built, and by understanding it is established;

by knowledge the rooms are filled with all precious and pleasant riches.

A wise man is full of strength, and a man of knowledge enhances his might,

For by wise guidance you can wage your war,

and in abundance of counselors there is victory. ~ Prov 24:3-6

Giddy up Colts! The Red Coats are Coming!

French Red Coat

Not sure if they showed up on your Nadar, but we’re embarking a period of unparalleled opportunity; both the dawn of a revolution and the dusk of twisted fantasies; sprinked scattered across the nation as seasoned chowder; dashes of peppered-plants infiltrate our ranks like –daffodils– souring the congressional state until we’re stuck in a pickle. Excuse me…, AH – CHOO!!!

Surveillez vos six, car les grains de beaute apparaissent sur mon radar.

the prototype

A simple word of instruction: If the shoe fits, wear it…

In our last blog dealing with the LGBTQ community, we confirmed philosophical ideas both redeeming and correcting the family – mostly through existentialism. We understood the importance of not conflating subjects and showed how social movements have influenced sexuality. Today we’ll deviate from the double “p” angles and begin to tap into the “f” channel; fashion.

Who Wore the Pants?

Don’t get too excited fascists! We’re not talking about pharmaceutical regulations. This is about clothes and how they have historically been correlated to gender identity. Surprisingly, the trend of what constituted dressing as a man or woman has evolved over time; with skirts being worn by men across the board since Ancient times and blouses being the common attire of nobles & peasants during America’s Colonial period.

30A man shall not take his father’s wife, nor discover his father’s skirt. Deut 22:30 KJV

It’s important to take note of these distinctions so that we escape the false dichotomy in the Scriptures before:

5 The woman shall not wear that which pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man put on a woman’s garment: for all that do so are an abomination unto the LORD thy God. Deut 22:5 KJV

Because believe it or not, this is how fascism works.

Ne me crois pas? Demandent les francais a la fin du siecle.

THE PROTOTYPE

To the French, the ‘end of century’ carried a theme that supported emotionalism, irrationalism, subjectivism and vitalism. Each of these intellectual paradigms had an essence that correlates closely to the negative aspects of the Charismatic movement; a revolution that emerged in the mid 20th century. When we emphasize spirituality over truth, we are more prone to ostracizing intellectualists — supposing that prophecy and preaching are the only forms of teaching; that God’s Word is NOT pervasive or immanent demonizing the required worship of God; with all our mind and voiding ‘all’ carnal insight from being genuine gifts of wisdom and knowledge. If the Church is not careful, it will continue its Pharisaical crucifixion of its wise men; apostles, prophets, teachers, evangelists, and pastors whose words carry great dunamis to partner with God’s plan to destroy save, redeem and restore the world. O how the times have put them in hiding, but no more!

When we emphasize spirituality over truth, we are more prone to ostracizing intellectualists…

the prototype, “giddy up colts! the red coats are coming!”

Why the Long Hair?

Additionally speaking, long hair in certain cultures also have arbitrary gender identity attached to it. Although the Nazarites often grew long hair, we see in the New Testament a rhetorical question about honor being associated with hair length. (1 Cor 11:11-15)

In Eastern cultures like Japan and China, long hair symbolized youthfulness for men and women and were generally encouraged to do so. Furthermore in Africa, long-hair was common among gender.

SIDEBAR: Do you know how good you look when you’re wearing those pants girl? You ought here putting surges in the air like you a circuit board. Did I say you’re electrifying? Nah that would be too lame. I’m telling you I didn’t have any dairy today, but you out here looking yogurt fire!

Fierce and Beautiful Hair
Native American Men Long Hair
African Men with Long Hair

Native Americans also took pride in long hair among men and women. As you can see, cultures around the world celebrated gender neutral fashions for centuries. What’s the point though? What does this have to do with the LGBTQ community?

  • Clothes effect mental well-being. LGBTQ may have inner desires confirmed through what they where wear. Because of the spirit behind how culture has changed through fashion, this may have also affect the psychology of a person growing up. This can be reasonably deduced by the fact that researchers have confirmed what they call ‘enclothed cognition.’ It is a well-known fact that clothing gives off a first impression – and – may boost self-confidence. If this is true, why wouldn’t this play an affect on gender identity? What a greater effect it would have if we clothe ourselves with Christ!
  • Neither conventional, orthodox, or universal standards in – and – of – themselves are the source of moral absolutes. Because standards change through the times and the Scriptures lack consistency by opposing each other, it is reasonable to assume that certain rules are qualified by its context. Nevertheless, Christ alone is the final arbiter of what is right and wrong and while we have the Holy Scriptures to guide us into godly living, we must remember that God is His own interpreter and will justify or condemn according to His will.
Parris Bowens

Just want to take the time here to give a shout out to two legends: Parris Bowens and Shock G Q. The music industry steady losing gems these past couple of years. When will it all end? Take a deep breath…Can you feel God? Do you also feel me…I know it’s hard to remember sometimes.

POP QUIZ: Name five French fashion brands.

Were the French allies or enemies in the American Revolution? Haitian Revolution?

Would you tell people to avoid cursing or swearing? Why or why not?

If Pepe Le Pew is banned, what other cartoon characters should be banned for ‘shameful’ behavior?

Shock G

They Crossed The Lines

So whenever someone either critiques someone’s gender by what they wear or feel threatened by the ‘gaiety’ of one’s dress, take a step back and be more objective; the person may either not know the promises attached to seeking Christ or be ignorant of History. We should not conflate the clothing of dress with the clothing of one’s character.


1 Who can escape my molding;
or refuse my decorations?

2 I give sight to the blind and hearing to the death deaf;
I am the LORD, that is My name!

3 Woe to the lofty who rejected Me!
Though you sow in abundance, you will not reap my inheritance.
Although you are well-educated you have not tasted Divine knowledge.

4 And although you tread upon grapes, they shall not be crushed.
Come to me, and I will give you wine you know not of.

5 Your most prized oils shall be as surstromming. You will confide in others, but no one will trust you.
Put your trust in the LORD, and your storehouse shall be stringed with wealth.

6 Instead of jealousy, you shall be surrounded with camaraderie. You shall be lifted upon High, because you bear my image.
And those who approach you shall go downward; instead of the swan you shall be surrounded by snakes, spiders, and scorpions.

7 Your kingdom shall be thwarted for your prideful tongue.
In humility will I establish my Kingdom with you, and you shall rule over Israel.

8 You have sought my face continually, therefore I the LORD will do it!
Because you did not seek Me;
I the LORD shall do it!

9But I waited for Christ, who has hid His face from me. Though I was deceived, I maintain my hope.
And you are impatient, saying “no one is coming to save you”. So you trusted in your strength, but it shall betray you.

Safe in His Arms, Rev Milton Brunson
How to Get to Know Jesus Better, Adorned in Armor

10 In one year you shall lose everything. Where you were once a rich man, you shall now become a slave.
On the twelve day in the month of Julius I shall bring her.
She was enslaved as a peasant, but I will make her royalty.

11 No longer shall my people listen to false prophets; their priests or imitate their worshippers.
Because you trusted in soothsayers; tarot readers and seances, you shall be the talk of demons.

12 For as waves hit the shore, so shall my Truth rush forth.
For as a Tsunami wrecks shorelines, so shall you drown in your falsehoods.


13 All those who oppose shall be bowed by my majesty.
Although they fight Me, they shall not succeed.


14 For the LORD is a Father to all who seek Him. They are translated from a generation without hope to a family of Promise.

For the LORD is a dead beat to all who despise Him. They are a generation destined to be caught and destroyed forever.

15 From the East to the West, they shall enter my territory as aliens.

17 They will flee from terror and know the fear of the LORD.

18 These are the oracles of Christ given by James; servant and fellow-laborer of the gospel.
To the one who clothes us with his majesty; Blessed be the name of the LORD God forever! Amen.


“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”

— Matthew 6:33 KJV

How they Quitted the Author: Innersextions Pt. 2

Plagurize Tee

If you go too fast, you’re in danger of going through the motions. Too slow and everything becomes stagnant. For most of us, we’re most vulnerable when we feel alone and exposed; our flaws are captured and observed with looks that make our skin squirm. How you fare when you feel threatened or tender depends on what you acknowledge about yourself and your surroundings. Take a deep breath…can you feel God? Can you feel me too? I know it’s hard to remember sometimes.

With an online world full of criticisms, people will put their best selves forward with the question remaining if they are being authentic. The weirdest phenomenon I’ve seen on social media is that people will look on a screen for people who are ‘real’ and ‘raw’ with them. Can you imagine how many trolls there would be if people could reach through their phone or tablet? Judging by the way the world looks now, it’s a good thing certain people don’t have super powers.

But there’s a hidden curse with those with common sense; as they say great minds think alike – and I would add – feel like too. (***Let me take a pause here***) Can you please get that booger out of your nose so I can breathe better? Thanks. I appreciate it.

Last week, some of our dear elders tackled philosophical ideas surrounding identity and the LGBTQ community. Interesting to say the least. I wish we had more people tackling subjects with impartiality, but that’s just what it is for now. I’m noticing more assumptions of certain Christian dogmas as correct (not referring to the elementary stuff here) and when we fail to critique our own stances, we may begin to present our opinions as inflexible truths rather than facts that are qualified by its context. Some things are true until it’s not and vice versa. Did you feel God? Can you feel me too? I know it’s hard to remember sometimes.

6 If you put these things before the brothers, you will be a good servant of Christ Jesus, being trained in the words of the faith and of the good doctrine that you have followed. 1 Tim 4:6 ESV

Howl At The MOON

Philosophy can wear you out man. Especially when it comes to existentialism: whose premise in my humble opinion is scrabbled semantics in a misguided attempt to provide a system to be authentic. Not going to explain my thoughts on that matter for now because the primary focus is to give further arguments in redeeming and correcting the alphabet community. There are certainly bugs within the existentialist framework; whether we are pulling notes from Jean-Paul Sartre, Maurice Merleau-Ponty, or George Serban, it’s clear that we can’t conflate identity with authenticity, and that any attempt to do so will muddy the waters between hypocrisy and delusion. Hold your horses Lexi! Let me explain that here:

Lexi: Why do you feel you need to explain yourself?

Me: I don’t need to explain myself, unless I’m seeking to express and justify my true nature.

Tee in The Hay

Ti-Grace Atkinson

I know I’m not alone in such sentiments, as is the case for any person whose eccentric, radical or a maverick. Explaining is a premeasure to protect oneself in society and the weaponry to stand up for others. This is certainly the case with Ti-Grace Atkinson; a gay woman who contributed to the system of radical feminism. Quite frankly, there is much for me to learn about the different sub-sets about feminism, except this class is off-putting considering the animosity towards men – Black men – in particular. There should be no surprise that the recent gender wars are rising from repeated instances of dehumanizing the other.

The feminist dilemma is that it is as women — or “females” — that women are persecuted, just as it was as slaves — or “blacks” — that slaves were persecuted in America: in order to improve their condition, those individuals who are today defined as women must eradicate their own definition. Women must, in a sense, commit suicide, and the journey from womanhood to a society of individuals is hazardous.

Ti-Grace atkinson, “Radical Feminism”

POP QUIZ:

  • Name five actors in the coming fast and furious movie.
  • Lee Sang-Guen directed a movie in 2019 about a rock climber who would later become a hero. Another movie developed by Living Waters Production shares it’s name telling a story about suicide. What’s the name of the movie?
  • Name three ways one can pay off debt? What is debt forgiveness? What are the pros & cons of forgiving debt?
  • Finish the lyrics: I’ll give you attention all night, all day…

Butter UP the Quilt

As humans, the more proud we are, the more we are willing to expose our rawness. When shame, threats, or courtesy arises, we look for places to hide. Society oppresses our ‘freedoms’ with consequences should we act in a way contrary with its laws. Such oppressions aren’t bad when the law is just, but let it be misguided or sinister then man!!! It’s horrible how difficult it is for women to get appropriate health care; to get maternity leave without worrying if their livelihood will be lost, striving for equality with men when now they have another existential threat; the transgender woman.

A man who has sadistic thoughts maybe considered unclean or a murderer at worst within a Christian context, but if he genuinely refrains from carrying out his imagination due to repentance, would we still classify him a sadist? If a person identifies themselves as a cat and spends most of their days acting like a cat, we can say they are being their authentic selves, but their body betrays their fancies. How would we identify such a person? A four foot six boy can walk around thinking they are a titan — crushing nations underneath his feet — only to be pulverized by a towering bully at school. Who is the boy ‘really’? What’s the point here?

…it’s clear that we can’t conflate identity with authenticity, and that any attempt to do so will muddy the waters between hypocrisy and delusion.

– The Prototype, “How They Quitted the Author”

Off in the Town

If we can see how acting upon every impulse may not be good, we can indulge in the more introspective, innate part of us. At what point should we suppress our desires? When should we let ourselves go and be “free”? As long as we can recognize that our identity is in some respects shared, we can build genuine relationships. Again, I know what it feels like to be trapped in a fragile body. I’m sure many people do. To do what I think is best for myself, I must adhere to a code; an ethics I develop personally but is also consistent with logic, nature, and the society I live in. In my personal opinion, making such decisions help me to move in a way most harmonious with the world, although I don’t need to agree with everything the world says. Some discord is good. Just ask Bartok.

Can’t lie to ya/

I didn’t zip my fly when I walked in the wider room/

I just threw my pants on, but I’m no panderer/

Panner, pinner, penner, panda/

See you can check my stamina/

Got no weight except this pound of cake/

Please excuse my grammar. Sorry Irma/

Didn’t know how things would pale/

Is it gay or happy? Is it BI or farewell?/

Gotta ID to market but my good nature won’t cell/

Now they tempt me to whore mong’ them cus they say sex sales/

Nah I’m good, I already made my choice/

No matter how many obstacles there are/

I’m gonna stay on course/

Let me be cool with these letters,
I don’t have to use force/

The genuine knows when they’ve strayed from the source/

I’ll come at this topic from one last angle and then we’ll move on. To all those within the LGBTQ community, you are loved. If you believe in God, try to discern how God wants you to follow Him/Her.

Questions to Consider

Does identity equate to authenticity? When do you KNOW you’re being authentic? Is being your true-self consistent with your identity?

For Christians:

How can we better relate to the LGBTQ community?

In what ways can we tackle to issues of racism, sexism, and other schisms in our community holistically?

Keep a close watch on yourself and on the teaching. Persist in this, for by so doing you will save both yourself and your hearers.

— 1 Tim 4:16 ESV

Dang! Who Lost the Mail Leaders?

Mail Leaders

FROM: ME

TO: YOU KNOW WHO

My dear,

It should go without question the true intent of this letter – unless – somehow we lost our connection along the way. Never once did I imagine a smooth ride in this crisis, and my wish is that you’ll stick around despite the delay. I know the turbulence is frightening; shots firing at every direction – it seems nothing is going right. They’re passing the needle around like it’s a miracle but there’s breakthrough cases. I know surprising right? And now they’re trying to suppress voter’s rights while killing the Black Man. Some Trinitarian strategy I’m sure of. I’m writing this letter to remind you of your options. No matter how many avenues seem to be blocked off, there’s another way. You know the old cliche. Remember what I taught you about false dichotomies. We have the power to shape our future.


15 So then, brothers, stand firm and hold to the traditions that you were taught by us, either by our spoken word or by our letter.

2 Thess 2:15 ESV

If you talked to me in my earlier years, you would’ve found me aloof to political matters. I never looked at government then as an answer to our struggles and in a way I still see clamoring for political power as futile, except now I see how God intends to bring His kingdom on earth. In the midst of the nations, God will draw people’s hearts to Him whether in reverence or in terror. Through the small acts in participating in our election process, we either speed or slow down Jesus’ eminent return.

This post is not intended as an attack on either party, but to show the validity of mail and absentee ballots, and the need for upgraded voter systems that are secure. In the last couple of election cycles, I had the privilege of doing mail-in ballots due to the pandemic in which I prefer over voting at the booth. Reason being is that I can’t keep track of who’s running for office throughout the year (it’s not like politicians come knocking at my door) and it gives me time to do research on the person to see what their stances are on certain issues. Seeing whose running ahead of time helps me avoid being influenced by propaganda. So we know how problematic it becomes when we either want to ban mail or absentee ballots or require that people have a voter’s ID. While it may look like it’s merely trying to keep legitimate votes on the surface, there is reasonable concern that these additional measures are attempts to discriminate against certain voters.

If it feels like I’m aloof over the internet, I’m really not. However I am reserved and will open up to people I feel at home with. Except let me tell you sumthn, America’s breath STANK! No really! Like the US has THEE DRAGON BREATH; funky and hot like it burns in Hell ten times over; trying to make friends but nobody wants to get close because of fear of death. The US wanna tell you they about justice and equity BUT YOU KEEP KILLING OUR BLACK MEN AND WOMEN!!!

Listen US, I don’t know about you sometimes. Here godly men are trying to usher in the kingdom of Heaven and another Black Man is killed. God’s kingdom can arrive any moment now and “poof”, another one of my brothers are gone? NOW WAIT A DAG GUM MINUTE WRIGLEY!!! Somebody fetch me some Orange Crush Soda Pop because I don’t know what type of sorceries ya’ll on… it’s certainly inflammatory. Ya’ll better get yourselves together here; like advocate for community policing, or get rid of the academy that protects bad cops, because injustice can only go unpunished for so long. Deceive yourselves if you wonna.

Lord I pray that you will bring more people in the truth with faithfulness. May they not be distracted or turned aside by delusion. – Amen

I want all of those who believe in the Messiah and Divine Love to stretch their faith to be conduits of Resurrection power; whether you are Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Zoroastrian, etc. We are living in Dark times – Death, but on the other side there is newness of Life.


Again love,

I know I’ve been late on arrival and we’ve yet to break bread together. Please regard such postponements as not my true intentions. If there was no fear, hate, or injustice in this realm, things would be smooth sailing – but alas! – here we are. You know my heart and how I wish to quicken the Day so we can finally be one. I say this before God, I do not lie. What a miracle it must be to experience the Divine in all its glory! Surely it won’t be long. It can’t be long. The earth groans with the rest of creation. Doesn’t your stomach churn too? I’d talk to you more, but I have some more preliminary work to do. You know I will love you always.

Until next time,

Now may our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God our Father, who loved us and gave us eternal comfort and good hope through grace, comfort your hearts and establish them in every good work and word.

— 2 Thess 2:16-17 ESV

Careful With the Patrons Mister. They Might Steal a Lick Off of Ya. Innersextions Part One

Trust Pic

It’s a learned habit from rejecting the norms of insensitivities and growing til’ there are no more mental or emotional impairments. – The Prototype

Gals, Galli, and Guilli O My!

Question mark: How clean are you? Do you think that will play a part in how others think about ya? Are you quick to start arguments? Ready to throw some hands? How do you wind down after a long day? Don’t worry, this isn’t another 21 questions.

It was half-past four when I felt queasiness in my stomach. This is one of those feelings I wish I didn’t have as much. I performed my usual remedies; including resting and being grateful through the pain. When you’ve been on the edge, every little blessing counts, and I was determined to see through another setback – although ultimately – the cause of the pain was from another form of sickness. I wonder if a sharpshooter ever wished they missed? Let the gun violence and all wars be put to rest, and let godly peace sawm the land with justice. Amen.

Heard from the Red Vines

When I was a shorty shorty looking like a little cupcake with shortening, I was given an allowance to go to the candy store. I would have my one dollar and would pick up whatever snacks I felt like having at the moment. I know…simpler times. Who would you think would win in a verzuz battle; Twizzlers or Red Vines? Perhaps that wasn’t a relevant question since today people are fleeing such run-of-the-mill jobs for a fulfilling career.

NOt Happy You’re Phat

Can’t help myself! I’m not afraid of entanglements. Just the impure type. I can be a pure-a-phobe sometimes.

*Shrugs shoulders*

Back in 93′ there was a huge discovery that could change the way people looked at Queers. A group of scientists discovered what they would call the ‘gay gene’ giving scientific evidence that homosexuals cannot choose their sexual orientation and can only love the way they were born to love. The findings of the research evolved over time; from saying there is no gay gene, to saying there are many genes that influence same sex behavior. Much caution is felt by the LGBTQ community in publishing their findings as they are regularly discriminated against in finding employment, government assistance, and receiving health care – the latter very likely playing a factor in the increasing rates of HIV cases in the community. Nobody should be denied grace no matter what type of person they are.

Is It Because The Body Lies?

No matter how you want to look at it, casual sex can do much harm as it debases a human. Research giving empirical evidence gives a mixed bag as it looks at a narrow set of variables. For instance, a study published in the Journal of Sex Research looked at heterosexual college students between 18-25. A greater percentage of men engaged in casual sex that was negatively associated with psychological well-being. What is missing from the study is whether or not these participants came from a private religious college, whether there were strings attached to the sex encounters, or if there were other outside influences (substance abuse, trauma etc.) affecting their mental state.

Additional research is needed when it comes to gender identity. For many people, they agree with the sex assigned to them at birth according to their genitalia. However for various reasons, there are others who cannot relate to their sex shown through their genitals. Whether these reasons are hormonal, (studies have shown that prenatal steroids combined with atypical endocrine secretions affect sexual orientation) physiological (e.g. hermaphrodites), or psychological due to abuse at an early age, many people’s identity don’t correspond to their physical bodies.

Or Because Of Body Shaming?

It goes without questions that social restraints and abuses have caused the LGBTQ community to feel isolated. When arbitrary standards of masculinity and femininity are upheld, people who may not fit the mold will be subject to ridicule. For many, masculinity is associated to strong and domineering while femininity is weak and servile. While there may be cases the affirms this positively, if classifications are left to absolutes, there will be toxic relationships between genders. Patriarchy is not inherently evil, but is has historically brought out cases of abuse, shame, and oppression.

Can you imagine what inner turmoil our fellow friends in the Alphabet community may have? I can empathize with them. All I ever wanted to do is dunk on somebody but I’m too short; I need a trampoline to increase my vertical and them I’m endanger myself jumping too high or hitting my head on the rim. Do you know the struggle of what it’s like to have to hold your head down around crowds? Because if gals are in the vicinity, guess what ya seeing? Huh?! What!? Do you know what it’s like to have to stand on your tippy toes at the airport so that the lady at the register can see you? Nah!? Naw!? Or stopping at a truck stop to use the restroom with several other tall & stocky guys waiting around the stall. Nope!?

Nobody should be denied grace no matter what type of person they are.

The Prototype

I wanted to bring lightheartedness to an otherwise serious subject. Persecution leads to trauma and we must be careful to convict with righteous judgments and with grace. Because if there’s one thing we can gather from this blog, it’s that the LGBTQ community lacks conformity to nature due to not being able to reproduce without artificial methods.

POP QUIZ

  1. In commerce, what is a Trust? How can AA begin to build wealth together as a community?
  2. This artist has the most streams on Spotify. What is their name?
  3. What two major prenatal hormones are crucial in determining sex?
  4. Do you have friends in the LGBTQ community? How can you relate to them establishing good boundaries?
  5. Team EWF or Team Isley?
  6. What is the prison-dilemma in game theory? How can this shape the way you trust others?

Not being able to reproduce without using artificial methods could be seen as correction from the Divine. This is not to sow seeds of condemnation, but to show where we often neglect God’s promises and take matters into our own hands. A promise of transformation awaits every believer who doesn’t want to merely fit in the culture. The reward of transcendence awaits every believer who delights in the Almighty while receiving His lovingkindness.

Quick equation here:

Transcendence ≠ Transgender

But it can certainly include it. I’ll touch on this subject again coming from a different angle. You know the deal, until next time.

You have my heart.

And we urge you, brothers, admonish the idle, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with them all.

1 Thessalonians 5:14

He’s Not Extinguished Warden

Fire Extinguisher

You have to give it to your enemies sometimes; they may successfully trap you and leave you isolated. They can betray you and leave you half-dead. Danger ever attacks the defiant – especially those who turn a deaf ear to surrendering to iniquities of any sort. And no matter how sanctified you are, you’ll soon face the dilemma of making crucial sacrifices. Your neck will be on the line and you might lose your bag. Embarrassment will not be enough – only the selling of your soul will suffice. This past week has been celebrated by Christians everywhere at varying degrees. In a time where the political and economic climates are volatile, we remember Jesus on His way to Golgotha.

Being a Black Man in America, I can recall the days of growing up in the Church. I was raised in Sunday School and Children Books that portrayed a Savior that looked nothing like me. Not that I cared then or am ultimately concerned about it now, but there is an existential problem that thrusts every African American into a sinister metempsychosis. It’s the choice every Christian must make, but in the world of the Negros, it’s either donning the social martyr, or becoming the star of minstrels. Either way, we’re exposed to being double-crossed not only from our nemesis, but from our very own people.

These things are what makes the gospel of Jesus not some irrelevant fairy tale. No, His story does more than just spark a dance. To those who have been wedded to His cause for years; who heard His call and shared in His suffering; the bruises of whips and mockery exchanging thorns for a crown; the bleeding and feeling the capillary action stemming from punctured wounds; seeping out dying hopes and dreams…and peace…and happiness…loss of achievement and acceptance. And as much as the Black Man has endured the shedding of his skin and loss of vitals, he cannot compare to the excruciating pain Jesus endured on the Cross.

As eyewitnesses, we see Mary, the soldiers, and the Disciples looking at Jesus being hung on a tree. In many times an in many ways the story is preached all over the world. Jesus is taken down and buried in a grave; ravaged not only in body, but in mind and soul. He descends into Hades. And what Hell awaits Him! If you cannot sense the torments shoehorned into every fiber of His being; from the follicle going underneath the epidermal walls; the agitated nerve and strained muscles; deep within the spongy cartilage penetrating all the way to every ruptured nucleus; Jesus is baptized with plasmatic waves of the dead. Certainly, the weight of His afflictions were of cosmic proportions beckoning his fanatic devotees to immerse themselves in His anguish, if but for a moment.

Silence continues for hours. We watch as his Disciples are left confused; wondering whether or not their cause was a sham and all for nothing. You can only imagine what fear and frustration went through their minds as they rolled Jesus into the Tomb. Those hours of void must have felt like centuries although in hindsight, it was only three days. And how often have we, in those brief times of loss, has it felt like decades before relief? Hasn’t this pandemic shown us how time can stop still? As creatures of life, waiting and uncertainty is tortuous. Let me speak for myself when I say being in lingo sucks – I mean – it’s one of the worse feelings in the world. Like your circumstances feels like Russian Roulette only except you’re not the one holding the gun to your head. Turning our eyes back to Jesus; I wonder how many of His followers wanted to commit suicide upon seeing His crucifixion?

Except the story goes: on the day Jesus died, the sun failed to give it’s light, there were earthquakes and many of the dead saints were raised from their tombs. Surely that pivotal moment provided no place to sit down as it foreshadowed what Jesus would do in the days ahead. Going into the grave heavily guarded by demons and devils, the LORD would make His way preaching to the lost. What amazing work of God! To be everywhere present, yet do the work of espionage. Can you imagine Satan laughing at this time? I’m sure there were taunts echoing through the underground; figuring the chances of redemption and restoration are done for. They must have reveled in such a stupendous feat in killing God Himself! I can see them asleep at the door while Jesus walks on by; stealing the keys of sin & death with tongue in cheek. That must’ve sent shockwaves all throughout Hades; shaking Hell’s imperial guards to consider what happened only to find their greatest treasure was stolen from their lord. How embarrassing to have to give an account to Satan:

SATAN: How is it my keys are stolen from me?

BAAL: We do not know. Isn’t the evil lord dead?

SATAN: He’s not extinguished warden!!!

Indeed he’s not extinguished! Just like when Moses’ serpent devoured the snakes of the magicians, this Jesus; the all-consuming fire conquered all the fires of Hell as an innocent man – yet – taking on all the sins of the world onto Himself. Down into the grave and up with resurrecting power, the stone is rolled away before the watchman. With thunderous roar, Jesus’ body is taken away. He’s not extinguished warden! And I don’t care how long your dreams have died away; how long your adversaries have triumphed over you; how long you have gone through lost and despair. They may have thrown dust on your name, but he’s not extinguished warden; you may feel that you’re way past your prime and it’s too late, but he’s not extinguished warden! You may feel that you may never find true love, but he’s not extinguished warden. For as Christ is in you, there is a Spirit that longs to not be put out. Those who are fighting the good fight of faith say amongst yourselves, “He’s not extinguished warden!” He’s not, he’s not, he’s not, he’s not, he’s not, he’s not, he’s not extinguished!

This cry is felt among Christians all over the world. heard among the persecuted and troubles; even among those who are dead. I speak to all those who are alive, and who are in the grave, and even those who are yet born. You know the corruptions that war against our soul. Many of you have faced great tribulation and have encountered death yourself; some are going through the struggles of their live; literally Hell on earth! Hear the words of a man who have been burned beside you; who has been ostracized, rejected, lied on and confused; who’s been thrown into the throes of the grave and tasted the manna from heaven:

ME: All the souls in the grave. ATTENTION!

He’s not extinguished warden. The glory God has prepared for you is greater than all the trinkets, pleasures, and comforts of this world. Greater fellowship is coming that surpasses all the disappointments and betrayals of men. Can’t you sense it? Is this not what the LORD promised for His people? As that day approaches, let yourself dream again. Open your heart to Christ and be enraptured by His love again. And the Divine ecstasy shall join us together in one heart and one soul; singing collectively together in new songs, and psalms; joining together singing familiar hymns like:

He rose triumphantly
In pow’r and majesty
The Savior rose no more to die;
O let us now proclaim
The glory of His name
And tell to all
He lives today

Now Father, establish the works of your people ang give them renewed vigor in you. Amen.

And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself.”

John 12:32 ESV

So…the Nas Ticks: Prelude to Innersextions

Hooded Disciple

Confidential: It’s eight o’ clock. Where are we in the construction of the chambers?

-.-. — .-.. ..- — -… .-: There has been a clearing of the foundation so that there can be a restoration of the basement. You must be patient as irrigation is needed to clear out toxicity.

Confidential: Understood. I assume James and Rod are still recruiting the others.

-.-. — .-.. ..- — -… .-: Yes, although James has had trouble getting people to commit to the cause. That last betrayal and ambush really wounded him.

Confidential: So we heard…at least he’s reconnected with his core team again. There maybe hope that God may end the cycle once and for all.

-.-. — .-.. ..- — -… .-: I would certainly hope so. Come LORD Jesus. Make haste to your people.

The Cure – Nas




Many aeons ago, there was a group of teachers that imparted esoteric knowledge. Because of their secretive and often Xtra-Biblical nature, they were shunned by the Church. They’re known as the Gnostics; name coming from the Greek word Gnosis meaning having knowledge. The Gnostics took learning very personal and allegedly were critical thinkers often challenging the Orthodoxy of the Day. For any outsider, they would agree that Gnostics were merely rebels and false teachers unless:

  • They understood the promise given to the church of Pergamum.

17 Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one who is victorious, I will give some of the HIDDEN MANNA, and I will give him a white stone, with a NEW NAME written on the stone that no one knows EXCEPT the one who receives it. Rev 2:17 Emphasis added

  • Teaching esoteric and wait for it…

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25 It is enough for the disciple to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master. If they had called the master of the house Beelzebul, how much more will they malign those of his household. 26 So have no fear of them, for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. 27 What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the housetops. Matt 10: 25-27 ESV

Now as ambassadors of Christ, let’s redeem some aspects of their teachings and throw away the others. For it will be useful in the future. Gnostics believed that the material world is inherently evil due to its flawed nature. (An objective truth if you do not subscribe to the Monist philosophy). Where it gets fuzzy is that they believed the material world is unredeemable and NOT created by the true God. It came from a lesser deity called the demiurge. The problem of this teaching is that it allows for complete denial of Jesus Christ. It is one thing to deny Jesus by name, it is more dangerous to deny him in essence.

Erica: Could we change the pronouns from him to her?

Me: Yes. It’s implied through the text.

Pamela: What if we’re non-binary? Can we use other pronouns?

Me: The text uses inclusive language ‘all’ so that would permit other pronouns.

Now we have been able to redeem LBGT & Gnosticism. For what purpose though?

  1. It gives stronger premises to redeem the New Age Movement.
  2. It provides systems of knowledge to recover lost narratives.

My hope after we deal with the LGBT community is further talk about what true perfection looks like in Christ, and uncover mysterious teachings in love. I am eager to do the latter in the context of music as I want to share all the things I learned from my mentors when I left music behind. When I get to my safe place, I’ll really start recording music again. I’m so excited! Lord please keep me alive until my work is done! Let my life be an inspiration to many to be their true selves in Christ. Let me free recording artists to not worry about having fans or making hits unless it is about tearing down the Kingdom of Evil. In your matchless name, Amen.

CONFIDENTIAL: I see you passed one of the gates. Good job. You’ll need to get stronger if you are going to continue to safely merge dimensions. We’ll see you on the other side….

Passage To Dissect

Look at the following passage:

Ye shall not add unto the word which I command you, neither shall ye diminish ought from it, that ye may keep the commandments of the Lord your God which I command you.

Deuteronomy 4:2 King james version
  • What rules can you perceive goes with Exegeting passages from the text? What rules should follow when it comes to adding to a text?
  • What secrets or hidden implications can you find in the passage? What does that tell you about HIDDEN MANNA?