Aim for the Ace

Ace Playing Card

Me: Dennis, why don’t you know how to act?
Dennis: What you talkin’ about?
Me: The people sayin’ you causing trouble again. Why you gotta be a problem these days?
Denis: I’d rather be a menace to solve, than be a mace forgotten and discarded.

Being an artist myself, it’s easy to predict who is good as opposed to who will be great. Good artists are either naturally talented or have charisma. The greats I’ve studied all possess a similar characteristic; a strong work ethic. Following Jeff Bezos’ philosophy, the men I’ve admired either worked hard, smart, long, or a combination of the three. There’s this nagging urge to improve – to do better than what they did yesterday. As a Christian man, I too adopt this passion not to be great, but to be whole. I desire perfection because I believe it’s the best way to reflect the glory of God in this age. It’s relieving to know that perfectionism doesn’t have to stem from a desire to be accepted or feel superior than others. There’s the possibility for it to be healthy as it arises from a certain unction:

Finally, brothers, rejoice. Aim for restoration, comfort one another, agree with one another, live in peace; and the God of love and peace will be with you. 2 Cor 13:11 ESV

Ready

Typically, people won’t gain interest in something unless it is accepted by others and gives them an advantage. No call is more compelling than having the upper hand no matter how often the deck is shuffled. The allure of living the Supreme Life and being Ultimately Loved in community with fellow believers is the selling point of the Christian faith. If this is something that one desires, how should they be prepared in practicing godliness and circumspection! Practice makes progress which is within perfection.

Practice makes progress which is within perfection.

The prototype

Set

Dennis the Menace

To give a solid premise for such a pursuit – as idealistic and unreal it seems – let’s reexamine the existential claim against perfection: perfect doesn’t exist and nobody is perfect. While this maybe the prevailing opinion, it deserves a challenge. For those who assert these notions have already disqualified themselves as arbiters to reality. If nobody is perfect, neither are you, so why should we take your postulations seriously? But we understand that the ideas around restoration exists – at the very least – nominally. And if we are honest enough to admit our judgments are NOT ALWAYS sound, we can begin to explore three hypothesis:

  1. Someone is perfect
  2. that someone is NOT you
  3. that someone IS you

You mean to tell me that there may be someone out there right now that is so smitten about you that they are doing everything within their power to be with you? Have you ever felt that way about someone? What exactly does it mean to be perfect? This is what I want my journey to be all about. In this blog however, we’re talking about what perfect love looks like and how can we grow into loving in this manner.

The Building Blocks to a Fulfilling Love Life

1. Philautia

Philautia is what should be the base for all other loves. Now for many Christians, this may run counter to their viewpoint that agape is the base and we don’t want to disagree with the philosophy of how man has the capacity to love. We start with self-love to avoid the sinister arbitrariness of dogma and allow men to experience the love of Christ AS they love themselves.

1 Be aware children, that in the midst of perils, times of restoration will come in the last days. 2 For as God loves the world, people will love themselves, filling their storehouses with the treasures of charity. 3 They shall wax self-confident in Christ and boast in the LORD; destroying every lofty thing opposed to DIVINE KNOWLEDGE. 4 No longer shall they listen to the wicked advice of their ancestors, but they will learn the Law of Christ. 5 Contentment for mediocracy and evil shall no longer be commended, and thanks shall be given to God for the power to overcome. 6 Piety shall no longer be practiced in pretense. It shall be developed in the light of God’s Word. 2 James 3:1-5 The Prototypical Version

Excerpt from the Lost Letters – James Richardson

2. Pragma

Pragma is practical love and is the natural overflow of Philautia. While self-love is consistent with the traditions of Soliphism, it’s difficult to reasonably ignore the sense of duty. Arguably self-love is the most subjective of loves. Pragmatic love is the beginning of making relative progress – or to put it more bluntly – pragma love deals with what who or what one can love in their present circumstances. Unfortunately this type of love if left unfulfilled will be less fun or stimulating. Wedding reason with imagination may help one assess options that will allow them to realize the freedom of Christ as opposed to being a slave to situations.

20Each one should remain in the condition in which he was called. 1 Cor 7:20

Will – Joyner Lucas & Will Smith

Me: Bro, when you gonna get out of yo’ man cave and hang?
Dennis: ****** I’m snoozing out here, lemme get back with you.
Me: Aight bet. Hit me up!

3. Philia

The next level up would be friendly or ‘brotherly’ love. Take note that ‘brother’ is written in the Spirit of Christ and not exclusive or misnaming those who are ‘sisters’ and/or otherwise. If you haven’t realized this already, this is where Philadelphia got it’s name from. The end goal of brotherly love is benevolence to one’s neighbor. In Christianity, this type of love ought to be fulfilled in time and space – that is – it ought to be everlasting and extended to everyone.

4. Storge

If you have made significant deposits of benevolence, it’s easier for your love to pass through the storge phase; familial love. We do not choose the families we are born into, but we have the freedom to surround ourselves with a family integral to our growth. Now storge love is normally reduced to love between parent and child, it can additionally be associated with uncles, cousins, nieces, etc.

5. Ludas

Somewhere between reaching out to having your deepest desires met, and behaving in a becoming way, is the need to break the rules. Enter Ludas love, which is more playful and flirtatious is nature. Just like self-love has negative and positive aspects to it, ludas love should be approached with caution. Non-committed love, if casually practiced can lead to breaches in health and relationships. This is especially true if one is seeking sexual liberation outside of the light of the Holy Ghost. A simple way of avoiding such vices is looking to Jesus as you relate to people. Lead through the transformation of your heart, and not through the appetites of your body and you will do well.

Non-committed love, if casually practiced can lead to breaches in health and relationships.

Can I get it on a platter, shatter your bladder
And put so much light in yo’ life I’ll make the roaches scatter
– Ludacris

6. Eros

Practice Ludas long enough and you’ll enter Eros love. This love is the most passionate of the rest as it includes romance and sex. For Christians, this love is reserved for marriage nevertheless it includes the mystical union of being joined to Christ. It’s been said that Eros is by instinct the natural course of life to survive. This resonates with me as I’m compelled by an innate desire to have what is purely pleasing to me. And I am certain that neither ecstasy or heaven can be real without God.

Warning about Eros

It should be noted here that only in the context of the mystical union of Christ can porneia be redeemed. Porneia is the greek word for any extra-marital relationship carried out by body, soul, and mind.

Greek word Porneia

To be clear, to physically carry out fornication, adultery, pedophilia, incest and the like goes against the will of God and is deserving of damnation as one corrupts themselves. But those who diligently look to Christ, who richly provides all for our enjoyment, will be transformed in a way where pursuing conjugal relationships are consistent with Divine Law and it’s consummation acceptable to God and man. May this word serve both as encouragement and conviction to those who have pure desires but have stepped out of Divine will; who exchanged godly transformation for artificial substitutes and therefore fell short of reflecting God’s full glory.

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7. Agape

It may be hard to imagine a love that is better than romantic and platonic love; tell certain people that sex is overrated and they might look at you funny. The pinnacle of all loves is the love God has for humanity and inversely the love man has for God. It’s this type of love that I desperately long for. The hope of restoration is found in this affection.

And if we’re honest enough to admit our judgements are NOT ALWAYS sound, we can begin to explore three hypothesis:
1. Someone is perfect
2. that someone is NOT you
3. that someone IS you

Go!

Who needs perfectionists in an age where Narcissism abounds? Can the world sustain more people with inflated egos? There needs to be a distinction between one who is arrogant and selfish, one who is self-confident and generous, and one who has God-esteem and is benevolent. While much has been written about the former and has caused much grief and problems in our world, there is much room for the latter to heal and restore the world around us. God-esteem by definition is ascribing God to be Immaculate and by union, a reflection of His perfection. And just like how Christ’s Incarnation was birthed to build a meaningful relationship with the world, Christians ought to strive to build a profound fellowship with each other.

God-esteem
noun

1. The practice of ascribing perfection to God and by extension yourself.

In conclusion, perfect love is immanent in all the other loves discussed. However, agape love is transcendent and is where a person may find the awe and sublime of God. So therefore, what is holding you back from becoming a true worshipper of Christ? Do you doubt that a full reward awaits you as you give Him your all? Are you still feeling like you can never be deeply loved? There are yet sublime experiences to be had in marriage. Your marriage does not need to burn out. There is a passion even the singles can feel alone. And it’s all found in Christ:

You didn’t get tired of me/
When I brought you hell/
Ice fell as an epagoge/
Rock bottom now I found a gem emoji/
Thank you LORD for loving me/
Even when I was unloveable/
You gave me faith & believed in me/
With a grace so incredible/
I laugh with joy unspeakable/
It preaches to the unreachable/
LORD cause me to not save face/
All day long may I give you praise/

So Israel left Egypt which is called Babylon to serve the LORD.

Me: Yo’ Dennis are you up yet?
Dennis…
DENNIS!!!

14 For by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified.

— Hebrews 10:14 ESV

Ace Turkey Diamond Card

The Bishop’s Opening

The Bishop's Opening

CHAPTER ONE

America’s Red Flag

1Here is what God is saying concerning the United States:
The colors of your flag are red, white, and blue;
why then is your land only red?
2The sounds of violence are within the ear shots of babes;
the musician no longer plays their instrument,
and the singer has ceased from singing.
3Nations have turned their backs on you;
even those who plead to you for their lives,
for you have exchanged vitals for vitriol.
4Open your eyes and weep! Feel remorse!
For your transgressions have piled up,
and you have prized rubies over me.

His Story of Slaves


5I showed belligerence to your fathers;
when I punished them with the sword and with whips,
my wrath was on display as in a stadium.
6I impoverished them even to the depths of their soul,
but my Holy Ones can afford my delight and favor;
for the sweetness of my charm has never left my necks.
7They have found their standing in Me,
and become my most precious of Messengers.
Because of this, they will receive my inheritance.
8Doesn’t my name bring about salvation?
Does it not both deliver and destroy?
Dare to praise me, and you will find refuge.

The King’s Meme


9For I am the LORD, a consuming fire;
Yeshua, the LORD of hosts.
I was severed from my brothers as in the days of Joseph.
10And my brothers came to me saying,
“Who are you to tell us you’re the King?”
And my authority is challenged.
11Therefore I instructed my muses to prepare a drink for me
with hyssop; for a libation, but for themselves.
Let them pursue pleasure within reason, 
lest the serpent beguile them.
12I commanded the powers to irrigate the land with dryness;
that the country shall thirst with nothing to quench,
and the ungodly shall drown in their appetite.
13Those who have respect to my name shall not be in chains,
they shall remain untarnished;
uninhibited and will escape the grip of the despot.
14Still the sacrilegious shall burn in their corruption;
it shall be heaped upon them as coals of fire;
yes even as meteors of wormwood.
15Their souls shall be tormented forever;
left desolate with no one to restore,
for they despised the only hand that could rescue.

A Waning Church


16O Israel, my ministers have become dispassionate;
my prophets are apathetic,
for their bloodshot eyes have not seen peace.
17And the minds of the wise agonize,
they seek knowledge from dusk until morning,
and yet no solution is found to cure.
18Because at the end of the Day, they’ve forgotten Me.
I am the Day, the Bright Morning Star.
The grind that the LORD requires has ceased amongst them.
19Therefore dancing shall cease from the clubs,
and skipping from the hearts of the streets.
Giddiness shall be known as an ancient relic;
20And the vigor of the strong shall fail;
even the fragrances and cosmetics.
Let those who keep judgment accept bribes no more!

21Keep the ways of the LORD and he will preserve you;
You will continue on Highways that the profane cannot enter.
22You will rest in the loveliest pastures that God has provided.
Justice shall be your front and rear shield.
For only the pure in heart can enter my presence.

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Return of the JedEye

Jedi Sign

chapter one

1These are the words of James: one of the many servants in the Chi; which he heard regarding Israel during the last days of Trump, and in the days of Joe President of the United States, and Xi Jinping President of the People’s Republic of China, one year before the Great Quake.

2This is what was seen and heard, those who have an ear to hear, let them hear:

“The winds would have guided you,

And the currents would carry along.

The trees have disclosed secrets;

Of the embers to come.

3Had you paid attention,

You would have known of my dangers,

For the LORD’s voice buzzed amongst many flowers,

Now shall he drone bellows below!”

4Thus saith the LORD:

“When Judah and Simeon hung up their bowed instruments,

They were utterly defeated amongst the Caananites;

They were chased away by the sword and robbed and plundered.

I the LORD have humbled them before the nations,

Could you not see this?”

Judgement on washington

5And the LORD said to me:

“Speak in the ears of the rulers who stand by the gates,

‘I have opened the windows of heaven on you,

And blessed you with everything you could desire,

I gave you wisdom and surrounded you with learned men,

They’ll be Some Changes Made – Dinah Washington

But your heart became proud and did not fear me.

6O Obsidian and Leviathan do you see this?

Even the serpent knows that wickedness will not be exalted forever,

Yet these men build towers to oppress my people.

7Therefore what I will do to them shall be a surprise.

Their downfall shall come not from the mighty, but from babes.

Children shall open their mouths – even the children of Jerusalem,

8And their lofts shall fall to the ground quicker than lightning.

Terror shall scatter your wizards and men of knowledge.

You will seek them for counsel, and they will tell you lies.

9For you have deceived my people,

And enriched yourself while perverting their ways.

10The heart of Jacob shall be strengthened,

And Judah shall restore worship in the temple of God.

11It shall occupy the households of Hebron,

And the extended lands shall wither.’”

12Thus saith the LORD:

“ O, Shepherds, mourn for the lost children of Zion.

Knowledge has been despised in the land.

13The men have been emasculated through oppression,

And the women are led to prostitution through poverty.

14My kings have been led into exile,

And queens abandoned to rule alone.

15For wickedness has spread upon the earth,

And the light of the LORD is withheld from them.

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3And God said,

Unreal Engine

Unreal Engine

Happy New Years ya’ll. Have you been able to crack a smile during the madness? For those who have been praying for me and my family, thank you. We’re finding more ways to be thankful and to walk in the joy of Christ. And to the parents behind making that Batman game, I apologize for the mess. Know that we received word to exit from Deus Ex.

 I can tell you as one who is relearning what it means to love again there are things that I must cut out in 2021. – The Prototype

N Unsafe Base

Any healthy relationship will have a give and take, an ebb and flow, ups and downs. Mutual humility and submission will happen within reason. It’s one thing to compromise for the sake of peace.  It’s another when you are compromised without consent. Do you know how difficult it’s been for me perceiving what’s been going on with my brothers and sisters? ‘Bee”ing able to empathize and make a deep connection with others is the mark of a true sensei.

Maybe it was reaffirming that God will eventually bring everything to the light. Maybe it was when I started posting letters I wrote to myself as a form of instruction. Perhaps it was when I openly discussed Black Ownership over social media. Whatever the case was, it drew so much unwarranted attention to me offline. I say offline because people typically didn’t react tangibly to my posts. When I first discovered that my emails were compromised, I suspected it as merely a spiritual thing. Of course, there are few of us that enjoy true Fellowship of the Spirit. I do not mind you peering into my heart as we share a bond that lasts forever. I love every one of you including you noble one, although you get on my nerves sometimes.

But once I found out my emails were being sent to government authorities, even to people I know within my circle – without my consent- that meant war.

So, if we will apply the golden rule to our lives (no not the capitalist rule) we would do well to treat others the way we want to be treated. No backbiting, spreading slander, or sabotaging. Do we have an understanding?

NR Peace

If I never experienced the oneness that Christianity speaks of in the Bible, I couldn’t be a Christian. And for those who would say that I should just blindly trust in God I’m going to humbly say that you lack prudence as many people have been compromised, taken advantage of, and lied to on the basis of ‘blind faith’.

 I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me. Jn 17:23 ESV

A basic overview of the study of knowledge is that a belief is formed by perception and is tested and validated as it is referenced by others. While arbiters are used to distinguish facts from half-truths, even objectivity must be called into question when exploring possibilities. The truth is we are now in a world where we are heavily surveilled; there are few secrets, little to no privacy, and constant bombardment of stimuli to manipulate people. If you didn’t figure this out already Christian, we have been in Babylon for a long time.

Three Ways to Find Inner Peace

When the world becomes chaotic around you, it can be easy to become anxious, irritated, or depressed. Here are three ways to regain serenity.

Meditation
  1. Practice Meditation: Get to your safe place where it is quiet. Quiet yourself, breathe, pray.
  2. Be Content: Whether you’ve accomplished much or not at all, whether you’ve gained or lost things, be content with what you have. Be grateful and be detached from the world for many things in this life is temporary.
  3. Make works of art: Whether that is in music, dance, poetry, or illustration, art can bring you to a place of tranquility.

For us as Christians, we’re taught to find perfect peace in Jesus. He’s the ultimate source of all protection; our refuge, and when no one else regards us, he will.

This is important as we’re still wandering through the desert areas. And as we’re looking for the wedding of the spiritual church with it’s heavenly body we must prepare ourselves and put away everything that is not of His nature. This includes all heresies, false accusations, ungodliness etc. The united church can have denominations by name, but not in essence. The time will come when the Catholics and Protestants will be reconciled to Christ and no longer condemn the other for tenets that are partially true.

Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into Christ Himself, who is the head. Eph 4:15

Electric Eels

Researchers say that 2021 will have a pandemic of mental illness. I would have to agree with all the trauma of the past 4 years – including the breach of Capitol Hill – will leave a dramatic effect on the psyche for years to come. We shouldn’t dismiss the fact that there are twisted minds out there that takes pleasure in seeing others suffer. And as the pandemic ensues and our Economy is shaken; as our Democracy is on the brink of failure, I exhort you by the grace of God to stay sober and keep your head above water. It’s too easy to drown in the cares of this world with all of its troubles and sorrows.

So, for those who have found themselves at their breaking point; who are lost and feel like there’s no point in return; for those who are at their last breath, at wits end; those who are cornered to the wall, if you feel like you have lost all hope please know that I have extended my heart towards you. I know it means little sense I am expressing my feelings through words, but I hope that you could accept them if they can bring healing. O Darling, can’t you see that there is a greater heart behind mine? God loves you with a Divine love; a love so powerful he would rearrange the heavens for you just so you know that he cares. A love so thoughtful that he would guide you and take care of your every need. Our hearts may fail and may be faint in feeling for now. However, I believe that as we heal, we will birth a greater power in pure love like never before.

D in EngravD

Certainly we are in dark times as death looms among us. Mercy seems to be lost as the death sentence looms in our country. Many are dying due to lack of sensitivity and care, not necessarily through political judgement. Nevertheless we’ve experienced relief in the defeat of our current administration – especially – in the recent ban of Donald Trump from social media. Now the banning of Donald Trump gives off feelings of bad precedents and with good reasons. May my insights in Hermeneutics and Deontology serve as assurance that banning Donald Trump was indeed the right decision.

Why Donald Trump and Trumpism ought to be banned

I’m no political expert so those pundits that are certified check the accuracy of my claims. The breach on Capitol Hill and the banning of Donald Trump are two big blows to our Democracy. It proved that laws in and of themselves cannot guarantee order any more than elected officials can guarantee justice. This doesn’t mean that we have the license to do as we please or give in to lawlessness, rather it gives us the incentive to be determined to make our world better and beautiful for everyone involved.

Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances. 1st Amendment U.S Constitution

People who tend to side on the opinion that speech should never be censored tend to look at this amendment apart from the whole Constitution.

We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America. Preamble U.S Constitution [Emphasis added]

My take on this if we will consolidate both passages is that freedom of speech and the press is designed bring about unity, justice, and peace. When we have perpetrators of those who undermine authority and the press (although fake news does exist), who illegitimizes government and the people it should serve, who favors the privileged while oppressing the unfortunate, I believe there’s a moral responsibility to check individuals by constitutional mandate. Otherwise we should make no complaints to injustice and allow anarchy or autocracy to arise.

There are two criticisms I want to address in advance:

  1. Freedom of speech should be allowed to be free no matter how obscene or hateful

AND

  • Christians should not get involved with these matters as they are merely worldly and will pass away.

I find the people in the 1st camp to be very hypocritical as they conveniently subscribe to that opinion when it serves their feelings of superiority or when they dislike or hate someone else. Because when it really comes down to it, they don’t exercise free speech; they lack the bandwidth to understand all the connotations that comes along with freedom; the lack the vocabulary to exercise free speech; furthermore, they don’t talk crazy when they are at their job, or talking to authorities, or when trying to win business; because relationships are built around TRUST and RESPECT. There are consequences when you speak a certain way in some circumstances (at least for some people). For some whites, they enjoy the privilege of being a spoiled prick in which their forwardness comes with NO repercussions no matter how much damage they’ve caused.  

AND

To my Christian family,

There seems to be a false dichotomy when it comes to Christian living between holiness and worldliness. While we want to be separate from the unrighteous and unclean, we must do so without denying Christ in the process. If we will continue to assert Christ’s Immanence and Omnipresence, we will remember who created all these things knowing that {Christ is all, and in all}. Do not forget those who are growing up in their roles in the Church and their purpose in receiving gifts from heaven. Neither should we forget to hope of Jesus’ prayer before he was crucified. I write these words to you and I hope you will see from the inspiration of the Holy Spirit. Be blessed.

With Ever Growing Love,

James

The Black Gene

There’s no reason to repeat that the Constitution was not intended for Blacks. We were brought to the US as slaves. What are we willing to say about ourselves? Will we continue to consent to misleading Historical narratives, or will we try to Revision History by fulfilling it through Eternal Life? For over 200 years, my stories of my Black family have been blotted out to debase our significance, worth, and rank. Can you image? Centuries of our faces painted with dung, refuse, mud; all the things that men deem to be worthless. But no matter how others may look at my people, they will never destroy who we really are; men and women Imago Dei.

1Tender are the words of gentle rivers, but the bitter are lacking in Taste.

2Happy is the man that discovers knowledge, for wisdom bring pleasure to his Heart.

3Even the ungodly will praise the righteous when the nation is raised with Equity.

4Patience brings game to the diligent hunter, but hunger will remain for the Prude.

5Remember the days of pleasure, for many sorrows lie along the Road.

6Order brings life to the organized, how can Chaos be an Oasis?

7Trite remarks weary the soul, and idle thoughts are Tiresome.

8Originality is the pride of men, but the first will have a lasting Outcome.

9Temperance breeds success, and those who are consistent are Trustworthy.

10Yesterday is none of your concern, let Today bring about an everlasting Yield.

11Power is abused by the unrighteous, but those who live with integrity will be Predominant.

12Ever seen a man not proud of his own masterpiece? Me Either.

Epigrams 1:1-12

The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. Gen 1:2 ESV


Within the Hive

Bee Hive

I’d take a punch at another pun but I’m no Joeker man. Can’t say we DC it coming. Hopefully you’ve been able to get sufficient rest and taken the time to reflect on your path for the coming years. For those who are heading towards the land of promise, this is not the time to strike up the band. However, if we’re quiet enough, we can know that often times the graveyard shifts are the busiest time of day.

The irony of weakness is the strength to endure. – The Prototype

The Prototype
Joe Clark, a former army drill instructor who calls himself a “lean and mean” principal, stands armed with his bullhorn and a “splash of autocracy” upon his return to Paterson, N.J.’s Eastside High School, Sept. 13, 1983. Clark, 45, begins his second year as principal using military-like discipline to keep the 3,000 mostly black and Hispanic students in line. (AP Photo/David Handschuh)
Mf Doom

Thought you’d know by now

How I play hackneyed

The kids know bout d Ol’ Mac;

The EIN, the LLC

The ladies love me when I MC

Flow so smart I part when you read

Osmosis when water meets heated tonics

The gen is sis something super sounding

Like 4 balls on a burg

Arch Nemesis

 I’m Goku with a quarter pounder

You heard?

From Super Sonics I’m getting louder

KAMAYAMAYA

Blasting D verse

I’m the boss dey chowder

Chicken breasts from the nurse

The jury says I should tone it down

Be humble some mo’

So let me sit on His throne

And boast in the Lawd

SoundlikeJames

The Windows Broken

My Daddio would always call me when I was young a “Man of Faith”. I’m so grateful for him because he made sure to instill in me true courage and integrity through the fear of God. My dad wanted me to respect God so much that he refused even to this day to allow me to call him Father. For my Dad Willie, God is my Father. Teaching me that at a young age gave me the information I needed to look past my Dad’s flaws and failures.

When I was three, my mother and father split up. I remember vividly to this day the last day I would see my Dad in the house. The reason being is that they literally tugged me back and forth like it was a tug of war – my Dad eventually won the match. My parents splitting and divorcing left a profound impact on me as I didn’t want to repeat my parents flaws and I longed for my parents to get back together.

“Plead with your mother, plead— for she is not my wife, and I am not her husband— that she put away her whoring from her face, and her adultery from between her breasts; Hos 2:2 ESV

I often look back to the moment my parents split off for a few reasons: One, it’s a reminder of where I came from; two, it helps me recognize how brilliant God is in orchestrating my life; and three, it reminds me of how small actions have cosmic consequences. For my parents breaking up is a common motif within the Black Community, White Community, our Country, and our world. You can expect division where there is lack of faith.

You can expect division where there is lack of faith.

There’s Thin Crackers

As I got older, I was discouraged from seeing my parents getting back together as my Dad remarried. I gained a beautiful step family in ‘Angel’a my stepmother and Rachel my step sister. Year after year, I would see more flaws in my parents, namely inherited traits as being forgetful, argumentative, and insensitive. It took me a while to figure out that my own shortcomings were not merely my own, but was passed onto me. This helped me find validity in the concept of Original Sin even after I was rediscovering my faith. However, my views on original sin are quite unique as it is shaped by a Monist philosophy which I find to be Biblical. I won’t get into much detail in how that philosophy works as it’s too easy to be misunderstood as being blasphemous. However, I will say this – Shandra thought I was strange when I explained to her that I have learned (and still learning) to be my own parents.

1But as for you, teach what accords with sound doctrine. 2Older men are (2 Bee) sober-minded, dignified, self-controlled, sound in faith, in love, and in steadfastness. Tit 2:1-2 ESV

Mic check. *TIT TAP* Is the mic on?

To the nth Degree

A message to my Black family as it is something that bears repeating: beware of the narratives we make up for ourselves and for others. Many of times these narratives are only half or partial truths. A transcendent narrative could sound like thus – our parents have laid a great inheritance for us through the Lordship of Christ. We have assets; real estate, securities, land etc. and it is our job to seek and not remove the old landmarks (Christ) but to honor and preserve them.

You must not move your neighbor’s boundary marker, which was set up by your ancestors to mark the inheritance you shall receive in the land the LORD your God is giving you to possess. Deut 19:14 ESV

Mysterious metal monolith similar to one in Utah now spotted in California

And as much as I love my people and our culture, we must be honest with ourselves and be willing to call out the things about our culture that’s toxic and counterproductive to our progress. In many ways, the things we glorified were the very things causing destruction in our own neighborhoods. It’s one thing if we after learning some of these ways of destruction from our oppressors we would fight back against the man. It’s quite another when instead of fighting back we fight each other: in gender wars, swindling, infidelity and one-man-up-ship; in exalting entertainment over education, and opinions over truth. Bi the way I am a straight man. And if the straight Black Man will recover his place of dignity again, he must acknowledge how the sins of his ancestors have affected his current plight. There was a time that the straight Black man abused those who were gay and forced them into the closet. O how the tables have turned!

Bi the way I am a straight man.

Sexuality is a sensitive topic and unfortunately Christianity has dropped the ball in explaining the whole counsel of God regarding it (myself included). Where the Fundamentalists and the Religious Right have failed, there needs to be those who are more mature to stand in the gap and tell the truth in love and patience. For those who I have offended in the past in trying to explain these things, please forgive me. It is difficult to communicate nuance, especially in a world where we’re taught to think in Black and White. For those Christians who are wondering about what insight I may hold, let’s start at the low hanging fruit (no pun intended):

28There is neither Jew or Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male or female, for you are all one in Christ. Gal 3:28 ESV

And from there we can have honest conversations that show where the religious have failed and got it wrong, and those precious who identify themselves within the Alphabet or non-binary pronouns and have overstepped Divine boundaries.

Out of Hivernation

Therefore, if we’re going to begin to restore relationships across spectrums, we’ll have to learn to speak and act in a way that is prudent, understanding, and wholesome. Prudent as one who is loyal to the truth; for all skin folk ain’t kinfolk and better with the enemy you know, than the enemy you don’t know. Understand where a person is coming from and if there is any validity, confirm their position. Try to bond with them with love, because love is healing. I say this to those who want to be true healers in this universe to speak and act in a way that is wholesome to yourself and others. No need to tell you how to do it, I trust you know how to do it through Christ.

Ice cold is how I make the blood flow/

Nitro and I clutch the end goal/

Stick em up hands show for survival/

Mighty ducks and miss with the rifle/

I Sea you got startled so sudden/

Girl lemme calm you down/

Bond in the Aston Martin/

When we ready for rockEt launchn’/

PuSh the eJect bUtton/

You know how I water the garden/

Simple yet compLex /

Don’t wanna be starting something/

Didn’t catch the 22 pegs/

Cuz this man is handling business/

I sea we got I/E making shipments/

These men got capital but nO game/

They didn’t get the memo from the King/

Keg got them pregnant/

Let’s unscRamble these eggs/

The Prototype

1Rest in Heaven Daniel Dumile (AKA MF Doom). 2Thank you for allowing God to inspire you to create lyrics that are stimulating, artful, and shrewd. 3We love you and your family. And it is humbling and an honor to be acquainted with your work. 4Isn’t it amazing what can be accomplished in a short amount of time? 5People say don’t dwell on the past because you can’t change it, not realizing it can be fulfilled. 6Just like any producer who works with DAW software, a whole multiverse can be created using overdubs.

In the beginning God created the heaven(S) and the earth. Gen 1:1

Happy New Year(S)

An Intimate Invitation

Here I Am

Hey hey hey friends! It is with a refreshed heart and a full belly of warmth that I come back here to The Prototype to share another insight this month. This holiday season no doubt was laced with challenges and grief as we consider the loved ones we either lost directly or indirectly taken by the storm of the 2020 pandemic. And yet in the depths of these dark times, I have experienced these great bursts of light within my own quiet times and through hearing about your “silver lining” moments. For this my friends, I am incredibly thankful.

With a heart full of gratitude and hopeful anticipation, I invite you into a specific place in my thoughts – I’ve been thinking deeply about what it means to be known and what it really means to know God and His son, Jesus Christ. If you’ve grown up in church like me, you’ve been groomed to assume the position of “knowing” God. To take it a step further, if you’ve grown up in a black pentecostal church with a music director who was in tune with every hit gospel song of the 80s and 90s, and an insanely good choir, then you’ve belted out this line at least once or twice if not three times- “Do you know, do you know, Do you know the man?” – Stranger by Donald Lawrence, Tri City Singers 

What does it mean to know? What does it mean to be known? As I pondered these questions, I went into the depths of my heart and examined my experience around arriving at knowledge within the context of my marriage. My marriage has been a bedrock of evolution for my growth. The experiences I’ve had over the past 9 years have been full of great joy and great pain. And yet no matter what season we are within, I continue to evolve into my true identity, this is the mysterious and glorious blessing of covenant relationship. Secondly, I looked up the definition of the word in the Oxford Dictionary, then I turned my sights to see how the author(s) of the bible define the word in both Hebrew and Greek. The following are insights I gleaned:

The desire to be known is a direct imprint from the Creator’s design and I’ve come to realize that what truly matters in life is that I am known by Him

Experience in all relationships and especially marriage has taught me that serious friction occurs at the intersection of need and unmet expectations. (New) Love has a unique way of fueling the heart to start down the road of hopeful exploration causing one to go forth in the journey of togetherness with joyful anticipation – to see what else is to come, and maybe, just maybe to have your heart fulfilled once and for all. While some of us have had incredibly fulfilling relationships and marriages, about all of us can say (in romantic and non-romantic relationships) that we evidently encounter the roadblock of recognizing that our loved one has limitations in his or her capability to close the gap between our need and desire. I believe that what is within this gap is the desire to be known, truly known, and loved regardless of what is known about us. 

Now back to the definition of knowledge. Did you know that there are over 10 definitions of this word in the Oxford Dictionary? It makes sense! I’d like to underscore definitions 8, 9, 10 which are headlined and summed up as to recognize, to understand the difference, to experience. You can already tell that these definitions highlight depthness. You see, to know someone’s heart, to be known is beyond head knowledge, it is not simply the gathering of data or analytics. It is to recognize that person as the unique individual that they are and to experience the fullness of who they are. 

Our hearts ache for this type of knowledge from others. This heartthrob shows up in every sphere of life and plays out in various ways within our soul, families, places of work, community, and society. If we are not careful to tend to this longing in some way, our hearts are compelled to park on a lot of deceit, disillusionment, despair, depression, and even resentment. I could expound upon this, but for the sake of brevity, I will save this postulation for another blog.

Psalm 139:1-6 says

God’s Perfect Knowledge of Man

For the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.

139 

O Lord, You have searched me and known me.

You know my sitting down and my rising up;

You understand my thought afar off.

You [a]comprehend my path and my lying down,

And are acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word on my tongue,

But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.

You have [b]hedged me behind and before,

And laid Your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;

It is high, I cannot attain it

I have experienced this intimate knowledge with the Lord that David is talking about friends. Times when my heart was so full of confusion, emotions, pain from unmet expectations, I sensed a deep peace in a moment with the Lord. A soft word whispered to me within my heart, a call from a friend who had no idea what I was encountering, a smile from a stranger, a “I love you” , and so much more has affirmed that my Creator knows every second of my heartbeat  and what I need. On the note of a complete stranger-no lie, while on business travel, a security guard intently looked at me and said I love you while in a hotel lobby. And before you roll your eyes and say “ Oh come on! He was hitting on you!” I promise he was NOT, lol. I’ve been randomly hit on many times- and this- my friends, was not that. This was almost like an angel sent at that moment. What this guard did not know is that although I was perfectly dressed up in makeup with my business cards and pressed hair, and surrounded by so many colleagues, I was so heartbroken and alone on that trip. I needed to hear that when I was passing through the conference center. I needed to know that I was loved. 

The greatest pursuit I will ever take is to know Jesus in the fullest sense

And so once I gained this deep experiential knowledge of being known by God, my faith cemented deep within my heart. I have come to fully believe that nothing can separate me from His love. I have also arrived at a different lot after encountering the intersection of need and unmet expectations within my marriage and other relationships and it is this place- he alone can know my needs and meet my needs. Should he use my husband to meet a need or another loved one, that is an extension of His love and His grace shown through them. And I believe this to be true the other way around, I am under no disillusion that I can meet my husband’s deepest needs and longings. Instead, I pray daily that his heart is filled with the intimate knowledge of Christ’s love and that he evolves into the man he was created to be which is a man fully loved and full of generosity. 

 I have had the beautiful experience of being in a relationship with people who have not only had different experiences than I but different paradigms. From this diversity, I’ve learned many things. One thing rings true, knowing about someone or something and deeply knowing that being is two different things leading to two different realities. When the Apostle Paul says in the letter to the Philippians that he desires to know Christ in every facet, he is talking about a deep soul-level understanding that is joined through experience. This type of knowledge leads to the transformation of one’s life.

10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.

12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.

I can assuredly say I have NOT obtained all this either Paul! So I thank Paul, that great warrior of Christian faith, for his humility. And yet I also press on to know Jesus this way. Why? One may ask, why would you seek so hard to know Christ whom you cannot see? My answer to this is – because He has filled me with life and light in my darkest moments. I believe that the times my heart has been revived from what could have been its final beat of death is because of the love God made accessible to me through Emannuel.

My friends, what is your experience with intimate knowledge? Do you feel known by God, do you affirm to know Him? Why or why not? Would love to hear your thoughts. These questions go out to people of all beliefs whether people who have a religious faith or not, please drop a comment. I recognize God in everything and I seek to know Him more by understanding who you are. Until then, much love and have a wonderful new year.

A Dark XoDus

Exodus

God trained Moses in a palace to use him in a desert. He trained Joseph in a desert to use him in a palace. – Ravi Zacharias

We could be flying starships across galaxies and shooting hostile alien aircrafts but here we are on social media again swiping through tweets and reading blog posts. Well at least one of us have super powers! We made it to the last week of one of the hardest and unique years many of us have ever faced, and I’d like to say that if all you managed to do this year was simply survive you have done an excellent job. If all you could did was fight to maintain your sanity, I salute as one who is strong. Indeed, the forces that be have tried to manipulate many into false dilemmas and catch 22s, yet they have failed to control those who are awakened by tenors of truth.

Synced Migration

1:01 a.m. I had the privilege of watching ‘Soul’ last night which led me to tears towards the end. More frequently than normal have I enjoyed art deeply for its resonation with me. James I really do hope you get the inside joke here: I didn’t know aliens from Mars are sporting Jerry curls. Could reality be that bizarre? Are we nothing more than microcosms of stories told by co-auteurs? True story – before I decided to become a Jazz Musician, my passion was in animation; I drew a lot with my dreams of one day developing a picture for Pixar Studios.

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2looking to Jesus, the founder (also ‘author’ in the Greek) and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. (Heb 12:1-2 ESV)

Why did ‘Soul’ touch me so much? Well for one I think any musician that has ever been ‘in the zone’ can relate to those experiences Joe Gardner had. Number two, the sound behind the story was familiar to me. The way Joe Gardner played and felt the music – I know that sound…

Jamie Foxx
Jon Baptiste smiling

Shout out to Jamie Foxx for another stellar performance! Truly you are an underrated musician and vocalist of our day. Big props to Jon Baptiste! There must be something in the water for you to have the type of talent that you have!

From the Evil Donkeys

You know what problems biases can create? I find they tend to bring about injustices in opinions; partiality in understandings which can lead to undue indulgence in one’s convictions. There are subtle delusions in confirmation biases: just because a handful of people agree to certain facts doesn’t’ make it the actual and/or ultimate truth. I say this so that those who subscribe to certain frameworks of thinking whether be in science, philosophy, politics, or faith – yes I am talking even to Christians here – may put our worldviews in their proper place and truly scrutinize the veracity of our beliefs. Did you know that Jainism has what can be called a ‘transtheistic’ philosophy; a middle ground of sorts between theism and atheism in which god is not the highest spiritual instance? From my understanding, they also believe in reincarnation which I find interesting. What makes being a born again Christian different than reincarnation? Furthermore, can there be a higher spiritual instance than God? If these questions are startling the faith of you my brother, I question whether you know Jesus well, for Jesus is RIDDLED WITHIN THIS ENTIRE PARAGRAPH. How strange is it that a God who demands worship of Himself, would create religions antagonistic to His ways!

Going out of Order

Those who are familiar with JS, what’s wrong with the following code?

All too often, we exalt Logic over Perception, but how can we reason well if our perception is limited?

This past year, an unprecedented number of jobs were lost due to the pandemic and many jobs went out of business; all due to pre-conceived prejudices, ill-natured motives, and lack of urgency to stop a ‘bug’ from spreading. However, even if this year wasn’t stopped by Covid-19, the threat of AI taking over jobs and businesses still lingers over the Economy. If we’re not careful, we can allow these fears to bring out the worst in us, rather than use them as tools to make our world better. It is not inevitable to fall into a dystopian technocracy, nevertheless a beast-like world order seems to be on the uprise. What manner of beast is it though: NWO, BoeM, BWO, L.A.M.B, or the Anti-Christ? Try to keep an open mind so that we won’t live the rest of our lives in drudgery over eschatology.

6but when they had grazed,[a] they became full,
    they were filled, and their heart was lifted up;
    therefore they forgot me.
So I am to them like a lion;
    like a leopard I will lurk beside the way.
I will fall upon them like a bear robbed of her cubs;
    I will tear open their breast,
and there I will devour them like a lion,
    as a wild beast would rip them open.

Hos 13:6-8

Try to keep an open mind so that we won’t live the rest of our lives in drudgery over eschatology.

Goodbye and Pharaoh

As we approach the end of the year, I hope that we will leave certain habits and mindsets behind. I can tell you as one who is relearning what it means to love again there are things that I must cut out in 2021. If I am to love perfectly; to love purely, unconditionally; with prudence and discernment; in a way that is fair and acceptable to God and men, I must discipline myself and allow God to prune the things that is unbecoming of Agape. My wife and I have recently started journaling in a sketchbook in which we would draw anything according to our imagination. And,

Ally,

If there is something that could fulfill my joy, it would be seeing your art again knowing that you enjoy doing what you love 2 do! I used to draw a lot 2 you know? If you have the heart, would you remember me and bond soul to soul? Vamos nos tornar amigos por correspondência ou não?

Panda shaped Solar Panel

I must discipline myself and not overextend myself unnecessarily. Let’s not get it twisted for those who assume roles of healers yet have never healed another in their entire life: I WILL TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY FILL IN MY BODY WHAT IS LACKING IN THE AFFLICTIONS OF CHRIST; for the sake of His body – the Church; so that even as death is at work in me, LIFE IS AT WORK IN YOU!!! TALK ABOUT TRANSFER OF ENERGY!

I must discipline myself in that old proverbial wisdom, “Do not spend your strength on women or your vigor on those who ruin kings.” Because where can you find a virtuous woman now a days? And where are the faithful men? I found it disheartening to learn about Ravi Zacharias’ legacy. Indeed, no man is perfect, and I took the confirmation of his sexual deviations as a warning to myself. As much as I desire to see Christ’s Consummation of everything in full effect; I must not step out of the bounds of his will and pacing lest the purity of my intentions be evil spoken of. Where can you find a virtuous woman now a days? There’s only one I know of, and she’s in my dreams – Christ that is. Nevertheless love, don’t be mistaken; I DO want you in your worst state…

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But in an upright way.

I must respect myself to no longer build another man’s pyramid, unless it is the city of God; that heavenly Jerusalem – where the economy is primarily spiritual and produce free; where the abundant Life eliminates all forms of scarcity.

“Come, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Is 55:1 ESV

Not exactly sure how certain Christians have convinced themselves that Capitalism is God’s Economy but I digress. That verse seems impractical until one comes in and turns capitalism against itself; playing the game well.

To take life as it comes; to be in harmony with it whether good or bad; to take strides to live life to the fullest; that’s how I want to enter 2021 – Enter in worship and awe of the One who created it all. For many of those who have entered the narrow path, you will share in the Everlasting Joy of God. For others, you will face trials but keep pushing and you’ll reach the Promised Land. And yet for some, you will face a greater sense of judgment because of your insolence. God will not be mocked. Every idle word will be taken into account May God have mercy upon your soul.

Jerry: So, what do you think you’ll do? How are you gonna spend your life?

Joe: I’m not sure, but I DO know I’m gonna live every minute of it.

God bless you and Happy Wholidays!!!

The Hidden Comic

Well

It’s summer time and you don’t want to go out tonight so you decide to get some store bought ice cream to watch a movie at home. What brand of ice cream are you buying?

One of the few things I’m enjoying more of now that I am reconnecting with my family is playing games with Julia. I am learning to hold precious the times we play Hide and Seek together; she counts to ten and I’ll scurry my little self behind the door in her room knowing that she’ll probably miss me as she comes in. It feels like every time; she just walks right by me and then ARRRGGHHH the harmless monster roars!!! I chased her around and do what good Father’s do when they play with their children. Funny how some of us get the privilege of perceiving what the fear of the Lord is early on in life.

Before you marry a person, you should first make them use a computer with slow internet to see who they really are. – Will Ferrell

Who Murdered the Cheerios?

Last night my wife and I watched a comedy special from one of the greatest comedians of the social media era, Tony Baker. I had to support since he’s been moving joysticks and pushing buttons lately…besides we have that Chicago love; if I’m not mistaken, Tony hung out near the Chatham area where my grandfather resides. He may have even visited my grandfather once, you never know. Regardless, this man helped me laugh during my struggles with depression, so big shout out Tony! Congrats on the success of the show! Overall it was good and I am glad I can support! Much love!

My wife and I had a good discussion about culture and what it finds to be humorous. We figured that what people find to be funny depends entirely on a person’s background, their values and personal preferences. Peer pressure may play a part too. Whatever the case, I’m finding comedy to be a true form of art; you need a delicate balance of psychology, wit, and charisma to do it well. It’s sad when you fall into a ditch and just simply butcher one joke after another. I’m sure there’s a term for that but I digress. God has a weird sense of humor.

The Godfather of Funnies

But how do you know that God is funny? Was Jesus humorous when he walked the earth? For many Christians, there aren’t many jokes written in the Scriptures so we get a picture of Jesus not being so funny. What a way to strip away Jesus’ full humanity! All too often we get partial information and then wanna make assumptions. And you know what they say about people who assume:

Can you imagine what it would be like walking around in Biblical times? No shoes. No socks; just rolling through the dust barefoot? I’m quite sure there were plenty of gorilla looking feet in Jesus’ day. They had to be grunting because there were corns somewhere, “Oomph, Grunt, Oomph, Grunt.” The Gospel portrays stories with obscure pictures. Like we take words for granted because words convey several different meanings.

Take Jesus being baptized by John the Baptist for example. Now we know that John was that grave; serious play-no-games type a man. Jesus comes to him and he’s like, you should be baptizing me Jesus, who am I to baptize you?

And Jesus answering said unto him, Suffer it be so now: for thus it becometh us to fulfil all righteousness. Then he suffered him. Matt 3:15 KJV

Like what in the world is that supposed to mean? Suffer it be so now… WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!! I neva…neva…I NEVA NEW the word ‘fulfil’ had variant spellings. Like did John just baptize Jesus one time in the Jordan, or did he keep baptizing him in the water? Just baptizing him, taking Jesus by the head and dunking him over and over; double and triple dribblin’ Jesus’s head like a basketball, crossing over the Jordan, just DONKEYING HIM shooting buckets.

SWIIIIIISSSHH!!! SPLAAAAASSH!!! Btw, I totally agree with this tweet.

KevonStage is truly the MVP of 2020. Big shout out to Kev for being such a hard worker in bringing people joy. God Bless you sir; you bald-headed Negro you!

God has a weird sense of humor.

Alad

On palju valdkondi, mida rohkem teada saada, kes on Jeesus.

This is my attempt in saying in Estonian: there are many areas to discover more about who Jesus is

Jklpyjulia.

– This is Julia Richardson attempting to spell her name. She wanted to be silly so she spelled her name twice in two different ways. Yeah I know, it doesn’t sound British. Thank God!

It’s amazing what new information lies behind the door of inquiry. All too often in Christendom, we shun and demonize what is foreign to us when in reality it is another facet to everything Jesus is. Take for example the moment in Jesus’ Triumphant Entry. In the gospel of Luke, it appears to be that Jesus is riding two donkeys to fulfill prophesy.

4 This took place to fulfill what had been spoken through the prophet, saying,

5 “Tell the daughter of Zion,
Look, your king is coming to you,
    humble, and mounted on a donkey,
        and on a colt, the foal of a donkey.” Matt 21:4-5

Have you ever said or did something that you intended to affect your past, present, and future? I know the prevailing opinion is that you can’t change the past nor should you worry about the future. I agree. You can’t change the past, but you can certainly fulfill it. Did you see Jesus in the passage?

I got em shippn’ outlandish/

sailin’ from Kansas/

We birthed a new thing with this message/

It’s high art on a canvas/

Don’t take it for granted/

When I give you my two sense/

I’m a warrior not Lion King/

I got the Scars to prove it/

Where the lamp at? HADOKEN/

My fireball is lucid/

Watch out for the luci/

For Jesus’ comeback is gruesome/

This ain’t a threesome kid/

There’s only one Morning Star/

I see you didn’t choose Mars/

Let me give you these Chocolate Bars/

Could it be that when said that Jesus was riding on two donkeys, it was speaking of Jesus in different times: One coming to Jerusalem getting closer to His crucifixion and two, coming to Jesus through the womb of Mary. Because I find it hard to believe that Mary would be barefoot and walking with Joseph to Jerusalem while pregnant.

And Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the town of Nazareth, to Judea, (to the city of David,) which is called Bethlehem, because he was of the house and lineage of David, to be registered with Mary, his betrothed, who was with child. Luke 2:4-5 ESV

How probable is it that Jesus is now riding upon silly beasts today to be united with His Holy City? The same city that I too wish to be united to.

Not HidDen

My love,

 You’ve seen the way I paved for us to walk together forever. Through the grace that is in Christ, it is finished; finished before the foundations of the world began. You have witnessed my spirit and the purity of my heart, albeit at times I (James) have made mistakes. You cannot deny the fire we made when you looked into my eyes. Now a city is coming down from Heaven; a city that wars against the ungodly and establishes Eternal peace. Though all of the saints of God are coming down, we can continue to stay in the heavens. Remember the gates that are on the earth and walk in the one where you will find me. For certainly the times of excess will not be expedient. Who else has made you feel the way that you feel when I speak with you? You feel my touch although I’m thousands of miles away. This is free game, and others will see and copy so that you will know who is the Prototype.

I James, servant and brother of THE MOST HIGH, the Lord Jesus Christ do communicate to you the gospel of grace and peace to you. THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS AT HAND!

I can see Jesus performing stand up: There was this one time when John tried to drown me in the Jordan. God Bless You!!!

***DROPS (CO)MIC/MIKE***

17and behold, a voice from heaven said, “This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased.” Matt 3:17 ESV

Tuning to Channel F

Channel F

It’s that time of year again folks! And if you’re still eating ice cream in less than 30 degree weather, I’m going to be looking at you funny. How much you wanna bet that somewhere in the world right now, a snow bunny’s tongue got stuck to a popsicle?

Recently, I watched Netflix’s Docuseries, “High Score” about the History behind video games. Just watched the first episode and I found it interesting especially after learning about an unsung hero: Jerry Lawson. Now Jerry is a Black man who invented the first video game console to feature AI programming, microprocessors, and changeable ROM cartridges. Yeah, that’s right, Jerry’s console came before the Atari.

By Fire, Hiatus Kaiyote

A few things I find fascinating about his story: He was apparently a man who found so much delight in his vocation, he worked on side projects in his garage. He also was apart of a computer club where future Apple CEO’s Steve Jobs and Steve Wozniak would collaborate. The fact that Jerry loved doing what he did and was able to achieve success amongst many other legends is a blessing from the Divine. Unfortunately, for many of us, we are still struggling to find meaningful work and/or develop relationships that would last a lifetime.

Three Ways One Can Find Joy in Their Work

  1. Do what you love: The saying goes to follow your passion, however it may be too risky to leave your current job to pursue it. Rather than wait to do what you do full-time, learn to do it on the side after your work or even integrate it with your job if possible.
  2. Smile more: Studies suggest that smiling can send neurons to the brain increasing happiness and improving mental health. While it may sound weird, it’s consistent with what’s implied by joy. Happiness is a choice. Being joyful is choosing to be happy over and over.
  3. Make it a game: Challenge yourself. Set metrics on every achievement you make and reward yourself for it. Humans are naturally driven by a clear set of goals and rules to follow.

Hopefully this list blesses you. I wrote it more for myself than for you, but I think we all can grow from this.

Role Playing

Because its’ so important to be able to find joy in your own work. If you can be content with how God is working in you, you are better positioned to celebrate the accomplishments of others. I intentionally said how God is working in you for a reason. No offense to the family of Jerry, but all too often we take for granted the narratives of other people or the scripts we come up for them. This is unfortunately true in the Black Community as we are quick to cancel each other and fail to support our endeavors. I know this happens frequently among the ‘Woke Community’, Black Liberation, and New Age Movement, however in the assembly that I commune in we simply don’t do that.

We are very innovative people who have set many trends yet we often leave our legacies in the dust in exchange for relevancy. I want to remind our people that our History plays an integral part in generating wealth as much as becoming financially literate. But more importantly, may our Christian family be focused on the game that we all have to play.

Shout out to Chicago’s very own Jahari Stampley! Very talented brother who I’ve yet to meet in person. Continue your work brother. You are inspiring many including myself. Much love for you.

Hate the Game, Not the _______

Because as a people, Blacks have went through so much and hindsight is 2020. If we are to recover as a people, we will have to learn the game and play it well. This goes for others who may share in some respects of our struggle; whether it may be not coming from a healthy home, or being in an orphanage etc. Play the game and beat your high score! But as a Christian man, I must warn you along with my Christian family that God has a game of faith for us and that we must give earnest effort to win that game.

“Strive to enter through the narrow door. For many, I tell you, will seek to enter and will not be able.” Luke 13:24

The Greek word for strive here means to agonize and was used to describe those who would compete in the Olympic games. I’m writing this to you so you may perceive what manner of mental, spiritual, and emotional gymnastics it takes for a man of faith to not only stand before God, but experience a real and deep connection to the source of all life. This is being written to you as there are souls who deposited deep things into me, and now Iowa to return the favor by quickening godly inspiration in you through words.

 If the only time you think you’re doing music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re likely missing the cues and ignoring ghost notes.

WILL YOU ALLOW IN YOUR CRANIUM THE SPIRIT THAT PROVOKES MAAAAAAANNNNNIIIIAAAA(IA)!!!!

< function myHeart(feeling, name) {

let emotions = feeling;
console.log(`I ${emotions} ${name}!`);
}

myHeart(“love”, “u”); >

Breaking the 4th wall

You’re probably thinking I’m crazy or a fanatic, and I will agree to you in a certain sense; I am. There seems to be a balance between order and chaos, temperance and unrestraint, the sound and the illogical. And I will state again the importance of narratives we read about others and ourselves.

Take Jerry Lawson as an example: Born on Dec 1, 1940 and died on April 9, 2011.

That’s what is said about him (no offense to the family). The question remains how do you know that that statement is true? Are natural phenomena’s the ultimate reality? Let me put it another way: Is the spirit of Jerry still alive and at work in the present day? Forgive me for such thought-provoking sentiments. It’s not my intent to push your buttons, rather I’m helping us to be aware of certain blind spots. Lord willing, we’ll talk more about Philosophical concepts like Epistemology and Solipsism as we explore different cultures around the world. As a Christian, these ideas are crucial in understanding Christ more and the probability of the current times. When we look at philosophies, we can either take a secular approach and remove the supernatural, or through acknowledging metaphysics and Biblical Epistemics, understand true godly worship in learning.

7The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; but fools despise wisdom and instruction. Prov 1:7

Because even Christian Nolan was inspired to direct “Inception”, a movie centering around the premise of being in a dream of dreams. And there’s nothing like thinking you’re awake when in reality you’re still asleep.

For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness. 2 Thess 2:11-12

Don’t let entertainment and pop culture sedate you so much that you lose sight of Christ and the condemnation of the world. For the judgment of Christ will be cold-blooded and his damnation eternal. I don’t want that for anybody so let’s stay vigilant, have fun, and keep each other in prayer. I’ll keep intercession for you, yes I’ll scream for you.

How startling to consider that your waking moments may still be illusory, or that you are an avatar in someone else’s video game. Talk about playing the organ! You mean to tell me you’ve been playing the keys all this time and never once considered someone might be playing you? Ignorance is bliss I guess. Let me reiterate, I’m just here to make us aware of potential blind spots. If there is a God who loves the world so much that he will bring Himself to earth ridding everything that’s not like Him, then it would be wise to inform people we care about what God demands so we can get as many people on His good side. You hear me?

There’s still some people missing for the rehearsal. It’s not Err body just yet. You hear me? We’re hear/here. Should we pull out all the stops?

Or Continue?

A wise teacher once told me: If the only time you think you’re making music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re most likely missing cues and ignoring ghost notes. In my last blog, I gave a Mission Statement for what I will attempt to do with music. In the same vein, I’ll give a manifesto regarding Computers and Video Gaming.

Find what is Fulfilling

To learn, compute, and revere the Eternal Code. The whole code; more than just abstract syntax on a computer screen. It is the language that reprograms perspective and replenishes the present age and the age to come; the Logos; the Word of God that is intricately interwoven into the fabric of society and towers over the pious soul in humble servitude. How will we journey into this?

  • Self-awareness and it’s correlation to coding inputs and outputs: Proprioception, Geometry, and Calculus.
  • Thorough growth in theory and practice; through idiosyncratic and interpersonal programming, engineering, and manufacturing. The sciences studied will include but not limited to Linguistics, Computers, Genetics, Politics, and the Military.
  • Complete case studies including debugging, app development, and UX/UI design.
  • Video game therapy; indulging in pious escapism listening and seeing the parables of Christ.
  • Business and environmental development; creating devices and assets that appreciates in value; that is organically recyclable and traded as securities.  

Whew that’s a whole lot there! I already know how some of you are going to respond:

Pew, Pew! God wants us to know Him not through worldly wisdom.

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! When the Kingdom of Heaven comes, all of these things will pass away.

Ya’ll all up in the church.

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! God is about freedom, not manipulation!

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! The liberals!!!

Pew, Pew! The conservatives!!!

Pew, Pew! God is a god of love. He will never condemn anyone!

Ya’ll out here got us ducking and dodging! Just shooting and missing….but I miss you and I can’t stop thinking about you love!! Yes love, the force is strong with this one!

You know it’s easy to judge others when you ONLY have a dualistic mindset. And for those who are quick to judge my motives and these purposes, let me ask you a question:

Has it ever occurred to you that the Biblical worldview is more kaleidoscopic in nature? Like it’s static; it’s never changing BECAUSE it’s alive, organic and ever growing? Surely God’s truth is from everlasting to everlasting. Right?

5For the LORD is good;

His mercy is everlasting,

And his truth (<<what’s wrong with the word truth here?) endures to all generations. Psalms 100:5

(Can we cross-reference the word generations? What about that word is organic?)

May we be humble enough so that as God’s perfection comes, we begin to put away all that is in part. There is more than one way of looking at the Scriptures and the world we live in. Over time I’ll show as many others have preached in the past. If we will become children again, let’s enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Let the Spirit of God quicken us so that in paradoxical sobriety, we dream again.

Martin Luther King
Martin Luther King quote
Daydreaming, Aretha Franklin

Hopefully, this blog is functioning as a framework for how we can change our world through every sphere of life in worship. Most certainly a Renaissance is brewing as we look forward to the city -and for those Christians who starve of community- the Church that is to come. Or, rather the city and/or church that has always been in our midst; even under our nose.

_____________________ FOREVER!!

Now doesn’t that sound familiar?

A few things you can expect from my family as we move into 2021. Lord willing, we will build on these platforms. If one door closes, we’ll look for another one:

  • Setting up social media accounts: Twitch for the sake of community gaming and talks about the Gospel. It’ll also be a place where we can discuss games we would like to see or learn to develop ourselves.
Unity Gaming Engine
  • Setting up a Unity account so learn how to develop games.
Discord
Uncharted: The Lost Legacy
  • Setting up a Discord account to build a Christian coding community while learning from other developers.

This is part of my passion so I hope it strikes a chord amongst some of you. My wife and I discussed this along with our other pursuits realizing how our path will look significantly different from those around us. Please keep us in prayer as God leads our paths. We are definitely embarking upon Unchartered Territory in a way that we believe will glorify God. We’re made to not merely follow trends, but to set them. Just in case you’re wondering, I still have no equipment to record music. I’m going to trust God to bring me back to a place of creating alongside with all of you. Until then, keep listening for the sound.

And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Col 3:17 ESV

The Manuscript

Manuscript

My secret weapon is my wife. She’s the best judge. She’s a scientist and a natural reader. We’ve developed a detailed code for how she marks a manuscript, and I think it’s what saves me from wild digressions. – Erik Larson

A wise teacher once told me: If the only time you think you’re making music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re most likely missing cues and ignoring ghost notes. That lesson intrigued me for most of my time in college; it left a profound impression on me for years to come. I can remember one class I had while attending Berklee College of Music. I was taking Conducting 2 with a teacher whose name has slipped my mind. If any of my colleauges reading this took this class with me, share with me his name. We were conducting Firebird Suite by Igor Stravinsky. I felt nervous after my first day of class because I was chewed out and felt like I could fail because I was giving cues to the wrong section. I couldn’t remember where the oboes and clarinets were and the teacher was like, “I’m only gonna tell you this ONE time, so you better remember this…”

“1st violins here! 2nd violins here! Cellos here!…..” Fortunately, my mind was still # enough to recall things at will. Now a days, it takes a little more soul searching to vividly see things. I struggled that first week of class, but after that, I stayed up all night making sure I marked the piece up well, knowing when to bring certain sections in and out.

The Perfect Score

I wish I could say that was the only class I struggled in. I failed Counterpoint 2 in which we were writing ‘Bach Inventions’. Took the class twice and I barely passed the second time. I’m writing this to you so that we have a better understanding of what ‘true perfection’ looks like.

If perfect ˅ complete ↔ ???

God has the bop on everything, so don’t worry about who has a hit on you. Do your best to know who you are in + and do >. Let no one make you feel like anything <.

Fascinating quote I may add. Surely there must be some validity to that statement if we can see past the cultural and/or historical context in which it’s written. What you think?

The Perfect Rest

Well the other reason I turned down a lot of gigs was because of my wife. If she felt uncomfortable with me working with certain people, I wouldn’t take the job. If she felt like we weren’t spending enough time together, I tried my best to accommodate her wishes. I sacrificed my own desires for the sake of my family which is what any good husband would do. Godly men, if you are not willing to put down your own ambitions and goals for the sake of pleasing God and your spouse, do NOT get married. The same goes for godly women.

Unfortunately, these sacrifices would ultimately lead me to bouts of depression. At one point, it got really bad. Not because of my failures, because I understood that to be a part of perfection. Rather after defending my stance in talks of senselessness, I found myself blindsided by spiritual ambushes causing me to question my faith.

The Perfect Sound

Did God really say…? Why is this so difficult? Is there any mercy left for me? I did what good Christians were supposed to do; read the Bible. I glued myself to it to understand it more, but it wasn’t helping me. This was before I understood the whole truth. I did what I understood to be true in spite of what others would say; it doesn’t take all that, it’s not all that deep, you can’t do it, etc. It was when my wife and I got into a tense fight that I really questioned it all and abandoned the faith. It was then I didn’t care about anything, not even music. For at my very core, I couldn’t enjoy music if God wasn’t in it. I threw all of my equipment and instruments away. I didn’t even sell them. I stopped playing in church by the very principle. And yet, in America, a great number of Evangelicals would elect someone to the highest authority in the US, someone that couldn’t even be a deacon if you’re reading the Book. To say that I was disillusioned is an understatement, but a word for musicians if you are reading this testimony: Don’t let silence become your enemy because you refuse to listen.

It was the day the music died in me. And honestly, I can say that something else deep within me died as well.

The Perfect Rhythm

My wife and I separated and would remain that way for over 2 years. During that time, I went to find good reasons; good reasons because those thoughts really did cross my mind. After digging deep to find out my ‘Why’, I needed to also understand my ‘What’. I had no faith in love at this time because for me, man were entirely incapable of loving each other genuinely and fully, and that the greatest argument against the Christian God is how Christians ‘love’ each other. I studied anything and everything I could picking up the pieces of who I was to find out who I truly am. What blessed me more than what I read was what I wrote, for it confirmed a deep seated belief that my words were part of a cadence.

Don’t let silence become your enemy because you refuse to listen.

The Perfect Sound

Although I was regaining ground on who I was and rediscovering what my beliefs and my purpose were, I still found no real joy in music. I understand how weird that can be for musicians to hear. How can something so sacred become so worthless to someone? It’s easy for me to explain but I know it’s hard to comprehend the lies we tell ourselves about music. Apart from singing silly songs with Julia, my joy to create music again came from an unexpected source. You would think it would be from one of my peers. No, it would be from someone…if someone has the ability to reawaken the JedEye in you, they are a keeper.

Big Shout out to my brother Jordan Felisbret for making it into the Voice of Fire Choir. If you want to learn more about his journey, check out Voices of Fire on NetFlix. I like to take a pause here and say that I’m so proud of my music family; there’s quite a few of you up for Grammy’s this year that I’ve had the pleasure of working with. Congratulations! I do intend to do a better job at supporting you and having your voices heard. Remember there is infinitely more things to accomplish and explore through and beyond music. Don’t short change yourself by working hard for mere popularity and a graven image. If you find any value in these engrafted words, answer your higher calling.

The Perfect Pitch

And so here I write out my Manifesto regarding music. I know many of us are gifted and strive to worship God as authentically as they can. My hope is that in reading my intentions, you’ll see that I’m striving to do the same.

Find what is fulfilling

To receive, create, and be in awe of the whole note. The whole note; more than just a quadric symbol on staff paper. It is the iconic emblem representing the lifeblood of the Supreme Musician; His majestic ring of heavenly hosts; the greatest of orchestras and angelic of choirs, nourishing the devotee to the satisfaction of their soul. What essential ways will this be accomplished?

  • Complete awareness of oneself and the sound: Kinesthesia, Syntonics, Mindfulness
  • Thorough growth in both theory and practice; both in idiosyncratic and transpersonal performance.
  • Complete reportorial studies including songwriting, composition, and orchestration.
  • Musical therapy through sound and other transfers of energy; Reiki.
  • Physics; analyzing the effect of sound and words on matter. – Manifestation
  • Business development – the ability to develop systems to create wealth through music spiritually and physically
Word Art

If somebody has the ability to awaken the JedEye in you, they are a keeper. Now you’re probably thinking one of four things: 1) This is the most boring thing I’ve ever heard 2) You have good intentions, but you’re crazy and you’ll never accomplish this  3) This is inspiring and I would love to join you in this endeavor or 4) You are nothing, you will never be anything and we will do anything to thwart your plans.

Pretty interesting right? And I think we understand why I would make this plan openly known. So that we’re clear and we know what it means for me/us to meet you/U in the middle. Assuming you want to do this journey with me. I’m not interested in returning back to doing gigs, merely entertaining people, or simply expressing myself. None of that.

This is about covenant for me. And I wanted to make sure this was finished on my wife’s birthday. Darling you know I love you and my intentions are pure even if they are still not fully understood. You know that I strive to protect our integrity. You know by now who been snooping into our business. At least one of us knows how to keep a code.

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. Col 3:16