Why Alice can Dance: The Story of Alice Ball

Alice Ball Profile
Mad Hatter – Chick Corea

In a world that is increasingly being filled with nobles and the notorious; it’s becoming more important to control the narrative and preserve the histories laid down before us. One of the primary reasons African traditions and their legacies are lost today is because it’s preservation was primarily oral. But today through Christ, many of those traditions will be restored; the good things that existed in the past shall be redeemed, while what is vile and worthless shall be tossed away. Now although Christ comes to redeem all, everyone will not receive the message. It’s unfortunate to have to cut off people who simply don’t gel well and then get upset afterwards. Whatever you must do, keep away from falsehoods. Don’t let a lie get to your head Alice.

Leaps over walls

Today I’ll talk a little about Alice Augusta Ball; an African American chemist that came with the most effective treatment for leprosy until the 1940’s. Her innovations in using oil extract to inject into the body was way ahead of her time. In the state of Hawaii, she is the archetype being the first African American to receive a Master’s Degree at the University of Hawaii and the first to become a chemistry professor there.

Alice was born to parents James Presley and Laura Louise (Howard) Ball on July 24, 1892 in Seattle, Washington. James was a newspaper editor, photographer, and a lawyer. Her grandfather James Ball Sr., was also a photographer widely remembered for being the first African American to learn a process of printing photographs onto metals called daguerreotype. See what is done here? Common names will often go through Historical cycles. To suggest otherwise goes against common sense.

ME: Alfred am I lying?
ALFRED: Nope

likes to move

Now Alice and her family moved to Honolulu as a child. They moved back to Seattle after one year. Apparently, the move was to keep Alice’s grandfather, James healthy. The cold in Seattle agitated his arthritis but he eventually died in Hawaii. Alice would return to school and obtain her bachelor’s in pharmaceutical chemistry at the Universal of Washington. Two years later, she would get a second degree in Pharmacy. After studying about Ether solutions, Alice would move back to Hawaii to get her final degree in Chemistry.

In Hawaii, Alice studied chaulmoogra oil and it’s chemical makeups. After discovering its water soluble form, ester ethyl, she was able to make historical discoveries to cure leprosy. She would later study the chemical properties of Piper methysticum which would be used to treat leprosy from 1866 – 1942. Her greatest advocate at the time was Dr. Harry T. Hollman, who being unsatisfied with the results Chaulmoogra oil provides, consulted Alice Ball for her findings in Piper methysticum. Every form of treatment with Chaulmoogra oil presented problems as it gave mixed results. It was first used as a topical directly from the tree as eastern medicine.

It was first used as a topical directly from the tree as eastern medicine.

Unfortunately, it was found too sticky for a topical and too painful as an injection. If used as an injection, blisters would be formed. If ingested, it would cause vomiting due to it’s putrid taste.

Ball’s wisdom allowed her to develop a technique that made chaulmoogra seeds palatable and absorbable by the body. She did this by isolating ethyl ester compounds from their fatty acids. She called it, “The Ball Method” but died before she was able to publish her findings. Arthur L. Dean picked up after her work and continued research, publishing his findings. He renamed the method, “The Dean Method” without giving Ball credit. Thankfully he would eventually get called out for this. The procedure remained the preferred treatment for leprosy until breakthroughs using sulfonamide drugs appeared in the 1940s.

Alice Augusta Ball died on December 31, 1916 at the age of 24. She became ill during her research and returned to Seattle for treatment a few months before her death. The true cause of her death is unknown as her original death certificate was altered stating that the cause of death is tuberculosis.

Vertical points

This story is to commend a woman who made significant impact on people who suffered from leprosy; and to show how often Black History is treated as lice; what effect of erasure and ignorance has on the psyche, as if leeches are eating away at memories. The Good News is that it doesn’t have to be this way; the spirit of Alice continues on today doesn’t it? And there are sure fire ways now to cure the toughest of diseases; His Word. And as we feast on His Truth like little maggots we’ll find greater freedom, greater knowledge, greater healing than what we are accustomed to.

ME: Isn’t that write Alfred?
ALFRED: If God says so.

Did God say so? You see, certain things don’t have to be difficult. It’s simple once you learn how to commune. It’s no secret as to how eager God wants to restore His people. The question is: are we willing to reposition ourselves?

Questions to Consider:

  • You may not be a chemist, but you are always combining solutions with your thoughts, words, and actions. What formulas could you test to bring about healing in your life and those around you?
  • How self-sufficient are you? In what ways are you dependent on others?
  • What ways can you learn to control the narrative in your own life.
  • In what ways can we ‘write away injustice’? Are the correlations between ‘personal policies’ and politics?

The Bishop’s Opening

The Bishop's Opening

CHAPTER ONE

America’s Red Flag

1Here is what God is saying concerning the United States:
The colors of your flag are red, white, and blue;
why then is your land only red?
2The sounds of violence are within the ear shots of babes;
the musician no longer plays their instrument,
and the singer has ceased from singing.
3Nations have turned their backs on you;
even those who plead to you for their lives,
for you have exchanged vitals for vitriol.
4Open your eyes and weep! Feel remorse!
For your transgressions have piled up,
and you have prized rubies over me.

His Story of Slaves


5I showed belligerence to your fathers;
when I punished them with the sword and with whips,
my wrath was on display as in a stadium.
6I impoverished them even to the depths of their soul,
but my Holy Ones can afford my delight and favor;
for the sweetness of my charm has never left my necks.
7They have found their standing in Me,
and become my most precious of Messengers.
Because of this, they will receive my inheritance.
8Doesn’t my name bring about salvation?
Does it not both deliver and destroy?
Dare to praise me, and you will find refuge.

The King’s Meme


9For I am the LORD, a consuming fire;
Yeshua, the LORD of hosts.
I was severed from my brothers as in the days of Joseph.
10And my brothers came to me saying,
“Who are you to tell us you’re the King?”
And my authority is challenged.
11Therefore I instructed my muses to prepare a drink for me
with hyssop; for a libation, but for themselves.
Let them pursue pleasure within reason, 
lest the serpent beguile them.
12I commanded the powers to irrigate the land with dryness;
that the country shall thirst with nothing to quench,
and the ungodly shall drown in their appetite.
13Those who have respect to my name shall not be in chains,
they shall remain untarnished;
uninhibited and will escape the grip of the despot.
14Still the sacrilegious shall burn in their corruption;
it shall be heaped upon them as coals of fire;
yes even as meteors of wormwood.
15Their souls shall be tormented forever;
left desolate with no one to restore,
for they despised the only hand that could rescue.

A Waning Church


16O Israel, my ministers have become dispassionate;
my prophets are apathetic,
for their bloodshot eyes have not seen peace.
17And the minds of the wise agonize,
they seek knowledge from dusk until morning,
and yet no solution is found to cure.
18Because at the end of the Day, they’ve forgotten Me.
I am the Day, the Bright Morning Star.
The grind that the LORD requires has ceased amongst them.
19Therefore dancing shall cease from the clubs,
and skipping from the hearts of the streets.
Giddiness shall be known as an ancient relic;
20And the vigor of the strong shall fail;
even the fragrances and cosmetics.
Let those who keep judgment accept bribes no more!

21Keep the ways of the LORD and he will preserve you;
You will continue on Highways that the profane cannot enter.
22You will rest in the loveliest pastures that God has provided.
Justice shall be your front and rear shield.
For only the pure in heart can enter my presence.

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Sikhing in Redemption

Looking Sink

Exploring Religious Text

FOREWARD: I do not speak Punjab and I have little exposure to Hindi. Learning Hindi was practical for me due to the nature of work I had to do in the past. The goal is to find Christ’s Immanence in all text; something that is easier to do within Abrahamic Religions than outside. The path of seeing Christ in all calls out to me as a deep longing I hold. I made this post public to invite those who are intrigued by such notions to join me in this Journey of Discovering Christ.

The following is an excerpt of the first Vaars of Bhai Gurdas ji. Vaars in this context is referring to literature within Sikhism and shouldn’t be conflated with the seven days of week in Hinduism.

Greetings to the Guru, Satnamu, the mantra recited.  (2-4-7)
The substance of salvation is absorbed out of the abyss.  (2-4-7)
ਜਨਮ ਮਰਨ ਭੌ ਕਟਿਆ ਸੰਸਾ ਰੋਗ ਵਿਜੋਗ ਮਿਟਾਯਾ॥ (1-7)
Sansa, this is the world, suffering in birth and death.  (2-4-7)
At the feet of the Guru, the Sat Shabad is liberated.  (2-4-7)
Bhai Bhagat Gurpurab Kar Naam Daan Ishnan Dridhaya.  (2-4-7)
The seed has borne fruit.  (2-4-7)
At first, I was breathless, but I could not hear anything.  (2-4-7)
ਰਕਤ ਬਿੰਦ ਕੀ ਦੇਹ ਰਚ ਪਾਂਚ ਤਤ ਕੀ ਜੜਤ ਜੜਾਈ॥ (2-4-7)
The wind and the water merge with the fourth earth without hesitation.  (2-4-7)
In the Punch, the Creator of the sky is absorbed in the sixth invisible.  (1-7)
The five elements, twenty-five times the enemy, the friend, the body together.  (2-4-7)

NOTE: The numbers after the text looks like they belong to a musical system. There seems to be a common theme of salvation in Eastern Religions. If salvation is in Jesus alone, there needs to be more objective proof in words and deeds. The phrase, ‘In the Punch,’ I believe is more likely to refer to a place in India rather than some juice or action.  

QUESTIONS TO CONSIDER:

When reconciling foreign cultures, it’s good practice to NOT conflate names and take note of titles. How can we find Jesus in the passage?

What similarities are there with the Vaars and the Bible? What are the differences?

What are the five elements being referred here in the poem? In what ways is such knowledge useful and irrelevant?

Ask, and it will be given you; SIKH, and you shall find, knock, and the door shall be opened to you. Matt 7:7 ESV Eisegesis added

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Return of the JedEye

Jedi Sign

chapter one

1These are the words of James: one of the many servants in the Chi; which he heard regarding Israel during the last days of Trump, and in the days of Joe President of the United States, and Xi Jinping President of the People’s Republic of China, one year before the Great Quake.

2This is what was seen and heard, those who have an ear to hear, let them hear:

“The winds would have guided you,

And the currents would carry along.

The trees have disclosed secrets;

Of the embers to come.

3Had you paid attention,

You would have known of my dangers,

For the LORD’s voice buzzed amongst many flowers,

Now shall he drone bellows below!”

4Thus saith the LORD:

“When Judah and Simeon hung up their bowed instruments,

They were utterly defeated amongst the Caananites;

They were chased away by the sword and robbed and plundered.

I the LORD have humbled them before the nations,

Could you not see this?”

Judgement on washington

5And the LORD said to me:

“Speak in the ears of the rulers who stand by the gates,

‘I have opened the windows of heaven on you,

And blessed you with everything you could desire,

I gave you wisdom and surrounded you with learned men,

They’ll be Some Changes Made – Dinah Washington

But your heart became proud and did not fear me.

6O Obsidian and Leviathan do you see this?

Even the serpent knows that wickedness will not be exalted forever,

Yet these men build towers to oppress my people.

7Therefore what I will do to them shall be a surprise.

Their downfall shall come not from the mighty, but from babes.

Children shall open their mouths – even the children of Jerusalem,

8And their lofts shall fall to the ground quicker than lightning.

Terror shall scatter your wizards and men of knowledge.

You will seek them for counsel, and they will tell you lies.

9For you have deceived my people,

And enriched yourself while perverting their ways.

10The heart of Jacob shall be strengthened,

And Judah shall restore worship in the temple of God.

11It shall occupy the households of Hebron,

And the extended lands shall wither.’”

12Thus saith the LORD:

“ O, Shepherds, mourn for the lost children of Zion.

Knowledge has been despised in the land.

13The men have been emasculated through oppression,

And the women are led to prostitution through poverty.

14My kings have been led into exile,

And queens abandoned to rule alone.

15For wickedness has spread upon the earth,

And the light of the LORD is withheld from them.

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3And God said,

Within the Hive

Bee Hive

I’d take a punch at another pun but I’m no Joeker man. Can’t say we DC it coming. Hopefully you’ve been able to get sufficient rest and taken the time to reflect on your path for the coming years. For those who are heading towards the land of promise, this is not the time to strike up the band. However, if we’re quiet enough, we can know that often times the graveyard shifts are the busiest time of day.

The irony of weakness is the strength to endure. – The Prototype

The Prototype
Joe Clark, a former army drill instructor who calls himself a “lean and mean” principal, stands armed with his bullhorn and a “splash of autocracy” upon his return to Paterson, N.J.’s Eastside High School, Sept. 13, 1983. Clark, 45, begins his second year as principal using military-like discipline to keep the 3,000 mostly black and Hispanic students in line. (AP Photo/David Handschuh)
Mf Doom

Thought you’d know by now

How I play hackneyed

The kids know bout d Ol’ Mac;

The EIN, the LLC

The ladies love me when I MC

Flow so smart I part when you read

Osmosis when water meets heated tonics

The gen is sis something super sounding

Like 4 balls on a burg

Arch Nemesis

 I’m Goku with a quarter pounder

You heard?

From Super Sonics I’m getting louder

KAMAYAMAYA

Blasting D verse

I’m the boss dey chowder

Chicken breasts from the nurse

The jury says I should tone it down

Be humble some mo’

So let me sit on His throne

And boast in the Lawd

SoundlikeJames

The Windows Broken

My Daddio would always call me when I was young a “Man of Faith”. I’m so grateful for him because he made sure to instill in me true courage and integrity through the fear of God. My dad wanted me to respect God so much that he refused even to this day to allow me to call him Father. For my Dad Willie, God is my Father. Teaching me that at a young age gave me the information I needed to look past my Dad’s flaws and failures.

When I was three, my mother and father split up. I remember vividly to this day the last day I would see my Dad in the house. The reason being is that they literally tugged me back and forth like it was a tug of war – my Dad eventually won the match. My parents splitting and divorcing left a profound impact on me as I didn’t want to repeat my parents flaws and I longed for my parents to get back together.

“Plead with your mother, plead— for she is not my wife, and I am not her husband— that she put away her whoring from her face, and her adultery from between her breasts; Hos 2:2 ESV

I often look back to the moment my parents split off for a few reasons: One, it’s a reminder of where I came from; two, it helps me recognize how brilliant God is in orchestrating my life; and three, it reminds me of how small actions have cosmic consequences. For my parents breaking up is a common motif within the Black Community, White Community, our Country, and our world. You can expect division where there is lack of faith.

You can expect division where there is lack of faith.

There’s Thin Crackers

As I got older, I was discouraged from seeing my parents getting back together as my Dad remarried. I gained a beautiful step family in ‘Angel’a my stepmother and Rachel my step sister. Year after year, I would see more flaws in my parents, namely inherited traits as being forgetful, argumentative, and insensitive. It took me a while to figure out that my own shortcomings were not merely my own, but was passed onto me. This helped me find validity in the concept of Original Sin even after I was rediscovering my faith. However, my views on original sin are quite unique as it is shaped by a Monist philosophy which I find to be Biblical. I won’t get into much detail in how that philosophy works as it’s too easy to be misunderstood as being blasphemous. However, I will say this – Shandra thought I was strange when I explained to her that I have learned (and still learning) to be my own parents.

1But as for you, teach what accords with sound doctrine. 2Older men are (2 Bee) sober-minded, dignified, self-controlled, sound in faith, in love, and in steadfastness. Tit 2:1-2 ESV

Mic check. *TIT TAP* Is the mic on?

To the nth Degree

A message to my Black family as it is something that bears repeating: beware of the narratives we make up for ourselves and for others. Many of times these narratives are only half or partial truths. A transcendent narrative could sound like thus – our parents have laid a great inheritance for us through the Lordship of Christ. We have assets; real estate, securities, land etc. and it is our job to seek and not remove the old landmarks (Christ) but to honor and preserve them.

You must not move your neighbor’s boundary marker, which was set up by your ancestors to mark the inheritance you shall receive in the land the LORD your God is giving you to possess. Deut 19:14 ESV

Mysterious metal monolith similar to one in Utah now spotted in California

And as much as I love my people and our culture, we must be honest with ourselves and be willing to call out the things about our culture that’s toxic and counterproductive to our progress. In many ways, the things we glorified were the very things causing destruction in our own neighborhoods. It’s one thing if we after learning some of these ways of destruction from our oppressors we would fight back against the man. It’s quite another when instead of fighting back we fight each other: in gender wars, swindling, infidelity and one-man-up-ship; in exalting entertainment over education, and opinions over truth. Bi the way I am a straight man. And if the straight Black Man will recover his place of dignity again, he must acknowledge how the sins of his ancestors have affected his current plight. There was a time that the straight Black man abused those who were gay and forced them into the closet. O how the tables have turned!

Bi the way I am a straight man.

Sexuality is a sensitive topic and unfortunately Christianity has dropped the ball in explaining the whole counsel of God regarding it (myself included). Where the Fundamentalists and the Religious Right have failed, there needs to be those who are more mature to stand in the gap and tell the truth in love and patience. For those who I have offended in the past in trying to explain these things, please forgive me. It is difficult to communicate nuance, especially in a world where we’re taught to think in Black and White. For those Christians who are wondering about what insight I may hold, let’s start at the low hanging fruit (no pun intended):

28There is neither Jew or Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male or female, for you are all one in Christ. Gal 3:28 ESV

And from there we can have honest conversations that show where the religious have failed and got it wrong, and those precious who identify themselves within the Alphabet or non-binary pronouns and have overstepped Divine boundaries.

Out of Hivernation

Therefore, if we’re going to begin to restore relationships across spectrums, we’ll have to learn to speak and act in a way that is prudent, understanding, and wholesome. Prudent as one who is loyal to the truth; for all skin folk ain’t kinfolk and better with the enemy you know, than the enemy you don’t know. Understand where a person is coming from and if there is any validity, confirm their position. Try to bond with them with love, because love is healing. I say this to those who want to be true healers in this universe to speak and act in a way that is wholesome to yourself and others. No need to tell you how to do it, I trust you know how to do it through Christ.

Ice cold is how I make the blood flow/

Nitro and I clutch the end goal/

Stick em up hands show for survival/

Mighty ducks and miss with the rifle/

I Sea you got startled so sudden/

Girl lemme calm you down/

Bond in the Aston Martin/

When we ready for rockEt launchn’/

PuSh the eJect bUtton/

You know how I water the garden/

Simple yet compLex /

Don’t wanna be starting something/

Didn’t catch the 22 pegs/

Cuz this man is handling business/

I sea we got I/E making shipments/

These men got capital but nO game/

They didn’t get the memo from the King/

Keg got them pregnant/

Let’s unscRamble these eggs/

The Prototype

1Rest in Heaven Daniel Dumile (AKA MF Doom). 2Thank you for allowing God to inspire you to create lyrics that are stimulating, artful, and shrewd. 3We love you and your family. And it is humbling and an honor to be acquainted with your work. 4Isn’t it amazing what can be accomplished in a short amount of time? 5People say don’t dwell on the past because you can’t change it, not realizing it can be fulfilled. 6Just like any producer who works with DAW software, a whole multiverse can be created using overdubs.

In the beginning God created the heaven(S) and the earth. Gen 1:1

Happy New Year(S)

Tuning to Channel F

Channel F

It’s that time of year again folks! And if you’re still eating ice cream in less than 30 degree weather, I’m going to be looking at you funny. How much you wanna bet that somewhere in the world right now, a snow bunny’s tongue got stuck to a popsicle?

Recently, I watched Netflix’s Docuseries, “High Score” about the History behind video games. Just watched the first episode and I found it interesting especially after learning about an unsung hero: Jerry Lawson. Now Jerry is a Black man who invented the first video game console to feature AI programming, microprocessors, and changeable ROM cartridges. Yeah, that’s right, Jerry’s console came before the Atari.

By Fire, Hiatus Kaiyote

A few things I find fascinating about his story: He was apparently a man who found so much delight in his vocation, he worked on side projects in his garage. He also was apart of a computer club where future Apple CEO’s Steve Jobs and Steve Wozniak would collaborate. The fact that Jerry loved doing what he did and was able to achieve success amongst many other legends is a blessing from the Divine. Unfortunately, for many of us, we are still struggling to find meaningful work and/or develop relationships that would last a lifetime.

Three Ways One Can Find Joy in Their Work

  1. Do what you love: The saying goes to follow your passion, however it may be too risky to leave your current job to pursue it. Rather than wait to do what you do full-time, learn to do it on the side after your work or even integrate it with your job if possible.
  2. Smile more: Studies suggest that smiling can send neurons to the brain increasing happiness and improving mental health. While it may sound weird, it’s consistent with what’s implied by joy. Happiness is a choice. Being joyful is choosing to be happy over and over.
  3. Make it a game: Challenge yourself. Set metrics on every achievement you make and reward yourself for it. Humans are naturally driven by a clear set of goals and rules to follow.

Hopefully this list blesses you. I wrote it more for myself than for you, but I think we all can grow from this.

Role Playing

Because its’ so important to be able to find joy in your own work. If you can be content with how God is working in you, you are better positioned to celebrate the accomplishments of others. I intentionally said how God is working in you for a reason. No offense to the family of Jerry, but all too often we take for granted the narratives of other people or the scripts we come up for them. This is unfortunately true in the Black Community as we are quick to cancel each other and fail to support our endeavors. I know this happens frequently among the ‘Woke Community’, Black Liberation, and New Age Movement, however in the assembly that I commune in we simply don’t do that.

We are very innovative people who have set many trends yet we often leave our legacies in the dust in exchange for relevancy. I want to remind our people that our History plays an integral part in generating wealth as much as becoming financially literate. But more importantly, may our Christian family be focused on the game that we all have to play.

Shout out to Chicago’s very own Jahari Stampley! Very talented brother who I’ve yet to meet in person. Continue your work brother. You are inspiring many including myself. Much love for you.

Hate the Game, Not the _______

Because as a people, Blacks have went through so much and hindsight is 2020. If we are to recover as a people, we will have to learn the game and play it well. This goes for others who may share in some respects of our struggle; whether it may be not coming from a healthy home, or being in an orphanage etc. Play the game and beat your high score! But as a Christian man, I must warn you along with my Christian family that God has a game of faith for us and that we must give earnest effort to win that game.

“Strive to enter through the narrow door. For many, I tell you, will seek to enter and will not be able.” Luke 13:24

The Greek word for strive here means to agonize and was used to describe those who would compete in the Olympic games. I’m writing this to you so you may perceive what manner of mental, spiritual, and emotional gymnastics it takes for a man of faith to not only stand before God, but experience a real and deep connection to the source of all life. This is being written to you as there are souls who deposited deep things into me, and now Iowa to return the favor by quickening godly inspiration in you through words.

 If the only time you think you’re doing music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re likely missing the cues and ignoring ghost notes.

WILL YOU ALLOW IN YOUR CRANIUM THE SPIRIT THAT PROVOKES MAAAAAAANNNNNIIIIAAAA(IA)!!!!

< function myHeart(feeling, name) {

let emotions = feeling;
console.log(`I ${emotions} ${name}!`);
}

myHeart(“love”, “u”); >

Breaking the 4th wall

You’re probably thinking I’m crazy or a fanatic, and I will agree to you in a certain sense; I am. There seems to be a balance between order and chaos, temperance and unrestraint, the sound and the illogical. And I will state again the importance of narratives we read about others and ourselves.

Take Jerry Lawson as an example: Born on Dec 1, 1940 and died on April 9, 2011.

That’s what is said about him (no offense to the family). The question remains how do you know that that statement is true? Are natural phenomena’s the ultimate reality? Let me put it another way: Is the spirit of Jerry still alive and at work in the present day? Forgive me for such thought-provoking sentiments. It’s not my intent to push your buttons, rather I’m helping us to be aware of certain blind spots. Lord willing, we’ll talk more about Philosophical concepts like Epistemology and Solipsism as we explore different cultures around the world. As a Christian, these ideas are crucial in understanding Christ more and the probability of the current times. When we look at philosophies, we can either take a secular approach and remove the supernatural, or through acknowledging metaphysics and Biblical Epistemics, understand true godly worship in learning.

7The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; but fools despise wisdom and instruction. Prov 1:7

Because even Christian Nolan was inspired to direct “Inception”, a movie centering around the premise of being in a dream of dreams. And there’s nothing like thinking you’re awake when in reality you’re still asleep.

For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness. 2 Thess 2:11-12

Don’t let entertainment and pop culture sedate you so much that you lose sight of Christ and the condemnation of the world. For the judgment of Christ will be cold-blooded and his damnation eternal. I don’t want that for anybody so let’s stay vigilant, have fun, and keep each other in prayer. I’ll keep intercession for you, yes I’ll scream for you.

How startling to consider that your waking moments may still be illusory, or that you are an avatar in someone else’s video game. Talk about playing the organ! You mean to tell me you’ve been playing the keys all this time and never once considered someone might be playing you? Ignorance is bliss I guess. Let me reiterate, I’m just here to make us aware of potential blind spots. If there is a God who loves the world so much that he will bring Himself to earth ridding everything that’s not like Him, then it would be wise to inform people we care about what God demands so we can get as many people on His good side. You hear me?

There’s still some people missing for the rehearsal. It’s not Err body just yet. You hear me? We’re hear/here. Should we pull out all the stops?

Or Continue?

A wise teacher once told me: If the only time you think you’re making music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re most likely missing cues and ignoring ghost notes. In my last blog, I gave a Mission Statement for what I will attempt to do with music. In the same vein, I’ll give a manifesto regarding Computers and Video Gaming.

Find what is Fulfilling

To learn, compute, and revere the Eternal Code. The whole code; more than just abstract syntax on a computer screen. It is the language that reprograms perspective and replenishes the present age and the age to come; the Logos; the Word of God that is intricately interwoven into the fabric of society and towers over the pious soul in humble servitude. How will we journey into this?

  • Self-awareness and it’s correlation to coding inputs and outputs: Proprioception, Geometry, and Calculus.
  • Thorough growth in theory and practice; through idiosyncratic and interpersonal programming, engineering, and manufacturing. The sciences studied will include but not limited to Linguistics, Computers, Genetics, Politics, and the Military.
  • Complete case studies including debugging, app development, and UX/UI design.
  • Video game therapy; indulging in pious escapism listening and seeing the parables of Christ.
  • Business and environmental development; creating devices and assets that appreciates in value; that is organically recyclable and traded as securities.  

Whew that’s a whole lot there! I already know how some of you are going to respond:

Pew, Pew! God wants us to know Him not through worldly wisdom.

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! When the Kingdom of Heaven comes, all of these things will pass away.

Ya’ll all up in the church.

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! God is about freedom, not manipulation!

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! The liberals!!!

Pew, Pew! The conservatives!!!

Pew, Pew! God is a god of love. He will never condemn anyone!

Ya’ll out here got us ducking and dodging! Just shooting and missing….but I miss you and I can’t stop thinking about you love!! Yes love, the force is strong with this one!

You know it’s easy to judge others when you ONLY have a dualistic mindset. And for those who are quick to judge my motives and these purposes, let me ask you a question:

Has it ever occurred to you that the Biblical worldview is more kaleidoscopic in nature? Like it’s static; it’s never changing BECAUSE it’s alive, organic and ever growing? Surely God’s truth is from everlasting to everlasting. Right?

5For the LORD is good;

His mercy is everlasting,

And his truth (<<what’s wrong with the word truth here?) endures to all generations. Psalms 100:5

(Can we cross-reference the word generations? What about that word is organic?)

May we be humble enough so that as God’s perfection comes, we begin to put away all that is in part. There is more than one way of looking at the Scriptures and the world we live in. Over time I’ll show as many others have preached in the past. If we will become children again, let’s enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Let the Spirit of God quicken us so that in paradoxical sobriety, we dream again.

Martin Luther King
Martin Luther King quote
Daydreaming, Aretha Franklin

Hopefully, this blog is functioning as a framework for how we can change our world through every sphere of life in worship. Most certainly a Renaissance is brewing as we look forward to the city -and for those Christians who starve of community- the Church that is to come. Or, rather the city and/or church that has always been in our midst; even under our nose.

_____________________ FOREVER!!

Now doesn’t that sound familiar?

A few things you can expect from my family as we move into 2021. Lord willing, we will build on these platforms. If one door closes, we’ll look for another one:

  • Setting up social media accounts: Twitch for the sake of community gaming and talks about the Gospel. It’ll also be a place where we can discuss games we would like to see or learn to develop ourselves.
Unity Gaming Engine
  • Setting up a Unity account so learn how to develop games.
Discord
Uncharted: The Lost Legacy
  • Setting up a Discord account to build a Christian coding community while learning from other developers.

This is part of my passion so I hope it strikes a chord amongst some of you. My wife and I discussed this along with our other pursuits realizing how our path will look significantly different from those around us. Please keep us in prayer as God leads our paths. We are definitely embarking upon Unchartered Territory in a way that we believe will glorify God. We’re made to not merely follow trends, but to set them. Just in case you’re wondering, I still have no equipment to record music. I’m going to trust God to bring me back to a place of creating alongside with all of you. Until then, keep listening for the sound.

And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Col 3:17 ESV

The Manuscript

Manuscript

My secret weapon is my wife. She’s the best judge. She’s a scientist and a natural reader. We’ve developed a detailed code for how she marks a manuscript, and I think it’s what saves me from wild digressions. – Erik Larson

A wise teacher once told me: If the only time you think you’re making music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re most likely missing cues and ignoring ghost notes. That lesson intrigued me for most of my time in college; it left a profound impression on me for years to come. I can remember one class I had while attending Berklee College of Music. I was taking Conducting 2 with a teacher whose name has slipped my mind. If any of my colleauges reading this took this class with me, share with me his name. We were conducting Firebird Suite by Igor Stravinsky. I felt nervous after my first day of class because I was chewed out and felt like I could fail because I was giving cues to the wrong section. I couldn’t remember where the oboes and clarinets were and the teacher was like, “I’m only gonna tell you this ONE time, so you better remember this…”

“1st violins here! 2nd violins here! Cellos here!…..” Fortunately, my mind was still # enough to recall things at will. Now a days, it takes a little more soul searching to vividly see things. I struggled that first week of class, but after that, I stayed up all night making sure I marked the piece up well, knowing when to bring certain sections in and out.

The Perfect Score

I wish I could say that was the only class I struggled in. I failed Counterpoint 2 in which we were writing ‘Bach Inventions’. Took the class twice and I barely passed the second time. I’m writing this to you so that we have a better understanding of what ‘true perfection’ looks like.

If perfect ˅ complete ↔ ???

God has the bop on everything, so don’t worry about who has a hit on you. Do your best to know who you are in + and do >. Let no one make you feel like anything <.

Fascinating quote I may add. Surely there must be some validity to that statement if we can see past the cultural and/or historical context in which it’s written. What you think?

The Perfect Rest

Well the other reason I turned down a lot of gigs was because of my wife. If she felt uncomfortable with me working with certain people, I wouldn’t take the job. If she felt like we weren’t spending enough time together, I tried my best to accommodate her wishes. I sacrificed my own desires for the sake of my family which is what any good husband would do. Godly men, if you are not willing to put down your own ambitions and goals for the sake of pleasing God and your spouse, do NOT get married. The same goes for godly women.

Unfortunately, these sacrifices would ultimately lead me to bouts of depression. At one point, it got really bad. Not because of my failures, because I understood that to be a part of perfection. Rather after defending my stance in talks of senselessness, I found myself blindsided by spiritual ambushes causing me to question my faith.

The Perfect Sound

Did God really say…? Why is this so difficult? Is there any mercy left for me? I did what good Christians were supposed to do; read the Bible. I glued myself to it to understand it more, but it wasn’t helping me. This was before I understood the whole truth. I did what I understood to be true in spite of what others would say; it doesn’t take all that, it’s not all that deep, you can’t do it, etc. It was when my wife and I got into a tense fight that I really questioned it all and abandoned the faith. It was then I didn’t care about anything, not even music. For at my very core, I couldn’t enjoy music if God wasn’t in it. I threw all of my equipment and instruments away. I didn’t even sell them. I stopped playing in church by the very principle. And yet, in America, a great number of Evangelicals would elect someone to the highest authority in the US, someone that couldn’t even be a deacon if you’re reading the Book. To say that I was disillusioned is an understatement, but a word for musicians if you are reading this testimony: Don’t let silence become your enemy because you refuse to listen.

It was the day the music died in me. And honestly, I can say that something else deep within me died as well.

The Perfect Rhythm

My wife and I separated and would remain that way for over 2 years. During that time, I went to find good reasons; good reasons because those thoughts really did cross my mind. After digging deep to find out my ‘Why’, I needed to also understand my ‘What’. I had no faith in love at this time because for me, man were entirely incapable of loving each other genuinely and fully, and that the greatest argument against the Christian God is how Christians ‘love’ each other. I studied anything and everything I could picking up the pieces of who I was to find out who I truly am. What blessed me more than what I read was what I wrote, for it confirmed a deep seated belief that my words were part of a cadence.

Don’t let silence become your enemy because you refuse to listen.

The Perfect Sound

Although I was regaining ground on who I was and rediscovering what my beliefs and my purpose were, I still found no real joy in music. I understand how weird that can be for musicians to hear. How can something so sacred become so worthless to someone? It’s easy for me to explain but I know it’s hard to comprehend the lies we tell ourselves about music. Apart from singing silly songs with Julia, my joy to create music again came from an unexpected source. You would think it would be from one of my peers. No, it would be from someone…if someone has the ability to reawaken the JedEye in you, they are a keeper.

Big Shout out to my brother Jordan Felisbret for making it into the Voice of Fire Choir. If you want to learn more about his journey, check out Voices of Fire on NetFlix. I like to take a pause here and say that I’m so proud of my music family; there’s quite a few of you up for Grammy’s this year that I’ve had the pleasure of working with. Congratulations! I do intend to do a better job at supporting you and having your voices heard. Remember there is infinitely more things to accomplish and explore through and beyond music. Don’t short change yourself by working hard for mere popularity and a graven image. If you find any value in these engrafted words, answer your higher calling.

The Perfect Pitch

And so here I write out my Manifesto regarding music. I know many of us are gifted and strive to worship God as authentically as they can. My hope is that in reading my intentions, you’ll see that I’m striving to do the same.

Find what is fulfilling

To receive, create, and be in awe of the whole note. The whole note; more than just a quadric symbol on staff paper. It is the iconic emblem representing the lifeblood of the Supreme Musician; His majestic ring of heavenly hosts; the greatest of orchestras and angelic of choirs, nourishing the devotee to the satisfaction of their soul. What essential ways will this be accomplished?

  • Complete awareness of oneself and the sound: Kinesthesia, Syntonics, Mindfulness
  • Thorough growth in both theory and practice; both in idiosyncratic and transpersonal performance.
  • Complete reportorial studies including songwriting, composition, and orchestration.
  • Musical therapy through sound and other transfers of energy; Reiki.
  • Physics; analyzing the effect of sound and words on matter. – Manifestation
  • Business development – the ability to develop systems to create wealth through music spiritually and physically
Word Art

If somebody has the ability to awaken the JedEye in you, they are a keeper. Now you’re probably thinking one of four things: 1) This is the most boring thing I’ve ever heard 2) You have good intentions, but you’re crazy and you’ll never accomplish this  3) This is inspiring and I would love to join you in this endeavor or 4) You are nothing, you will never be anything and we will do anything to thwart your plans.

Pretty interesting right? And I think we understand why I would make this plan openly known. So that we’re clear and we know what it means for me/us to meet you/U in the middle. Assuming you want to do this journey with me. I’m not interested in returning back to doing gigs, merely entertaining people, or simply expressing myself. None of that.

This is about covenant for me. And I wanted to make sure this was finished on my wife’s birthday. Darling you know I love you and my intentions are pure even if they are still not fully understood. You know that I strive to protect our integrity. You know by now who been snooping into our business. At least one of us knows how to keep a code.

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. Col 3:16