An Intimate Invitation

Here I Am

Hey hey hey friends! It is with a refreshed heart and a full belly of warmth that I come back here to The Prototype to share another insight this month. This holiday season no doubt was laced with challenges and grief as we consider the loved ones we either lost directly or indirectly taken by the storm of the 2020 pandemic. And yet in the depths of these dark times, I have experienced these great bursts of light within my own quiet times and through hearing about your “silver lining” moments. For this my friends, I am incredibly thankful.

With a heart full of gratitude and hopeful anticipation, I invite you into a specific place in my thoughts – I’ve been thinking deeply about what it means to be known and what it really means to know God and His son, Jesus Christ. If you’ve grown up in church like me, you’ve been groomed to assume the position of “knowing” God. To take it a step further, if you’ve grown up in a black pentecostal church with a music director who was in tune with every hit gospel song of the 80s and 90s, and an insanely good choir, then you’ve belted out this line at least once or twice if not three times- “Do you know, do you know, Do you know the man?” – Stranger by Donald Lawrence, Tri City Singers 

What does it mean to know? What does it mean to be known? As I pondered these questions, I went into the depths of my heart and examined my experience around arriving at knowledge within the context of my marriage. My marriage has been a bedrock of evolution for my growth. The experiences I’ve had over the past 9 years have been full of great joy and great pain. And yet no matter what season we are within, I continue to evolve into my true identity, this is the mysterious and glorious blessing of covenant relationship. Secondly, I looked up the definition of the word in the Oxford Dictionary, then I turned my sights to see how the author(s) of the bible define the word in both Hebrew and Greek. The following are insights I gleaned:

The desire to be known is a direct imprint from the Creator’s design and I’ve come to realize that what truly matters in life is that I am known by Him

Experience in all relationships and especially marriage has taught me that serious friction occurs at the intersection of need and unmet expectations. (New) Love has a unique way of fueling the heart to start down the road of hopeful exploration causing one to go forth in the journey of togetherness with joyful anticipation – to see what else is to come, and maybe, just maybe to have your heart fulfilled once and for all. While some of us have had incredibly fulfilling relationships and marriages, about all of us can say (in romantic and non-romantic relationships) that we evidently encounter the roadblock of recognizing that our loved one has limitations in his or her capability to close the gap between our need and desire. I believe that what is within this gap is the desire to be known, truly known, and loved regardless of what is known about us. 

Now back to the definition of knowledge. Did you know that there are over 10 definitions of this word in the Oxford Dictionary? It makes sense! I’d like to underscore definitions 8, 9, 10 which are headlined and summed up as to recognize, to understand the difference, to experience. You can already tell that these definitions highlight depthness. You see, to know someone’s heart, to be known is beyond head knowledge, it is not simply the gathering of data or analytics. It is to recognize that person as the unique individual that they are and to experience the fullness of who they are. 

Our hearts ache for this type of knowledge from others. This heartthrob shows up in every sphere of life and plays out in various ways within our soul, families, places of work, community, and society. If we are not careful to tend to this longing in some way, our hearts are compelled to park on a lot of deceit, disillusionment, despair, depression, and even resentment. I could expound upon this, but for the sake of brevity, I will save this postulation for another blog.

Psalm 139:1-6 says

God’s Perfect Knowledge of Man

For the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.

139 

O Lord, You have searched me and known me.

You know my sitting down and my rising up;

You understand my thought afar off.

You [a]comprehend my path and my lying down,

And are acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word on my tongue,

But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.

You have [b]hedged me behind and before,

And laid Your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;

It is high, I cannot attain it

I have experienced this intimate knowledge with the Lord that David is talking about friends. Times when my heart was so full of confusion, emotions, pain from unmet expectations, I sensed a deep peace in a moment with the Lord. A soft word whispered to me within my heart, a call from a friend who had no idea what I was encountering, a smile from a stranger, a “I love you” , and so much more has affirmed that my Creator knows every second of my heartbeat  and what I need. On the note of a complete stranger-no lie, while on business travel, a security guard intently looked at me and said I love you while in a hotel lobby. And before you roll your eyes and say “ Oh come on! He was hitting on you!” I promise he was NOT, lol. I’ve been randomly hit on many times- and this- my friends, was not that. This was almost like an angel sent at that moment. What this guard did not know is that although I was perfectly dressed up in makeup with my business cards and pressed hair, and surrounded by so many colleagues, I was so heartbroken and alone on that trip. I needed to hear that when I was passing through the conference center. I needed to know that I was loved. 

The greatest pursuit I will ever take is to know Jesus in the fullest sense

And so once I gained this deep experiential knowledge of being known by God, my faith cemented deep within my heart. I have come to fully believe that nothing can separate me from His love. I have also arrived at a different lot after encountering the intersection of need and unmet expectations within my marriage and other relationships and it is this place- he alone can know my needs and meet my needs. Should he use my husband to meet a need or another loved one, that is an extension of His love and His grace shown through them. And I believe this to be true the other way around, I am under no disillusion that I can meet my husband’s deepest needs and longings. Instead, I pray daily that his heart is filled with the intimate knowledge of Christ’s love and that he evolves into the man he was created to be which is a man fully loved and full of generosity. 

 I have had the beautiful experience of being in a relationship with people who have not only had different experiences than I but different paradigms. From this diversity, I’ve learned many things. One thing rings true, knowing about someone or something and deeply knowing that being is two different things leading to two different realities. When the Apostle Paul says in the letter to the Philippians that he desires to know Christ in every facet, he is talking about a deep soul-level understanding that is joined through experience. This type of knowledge leads to the transformation of one’s life.

10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.

12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.

I can assuredly say I have NOT obtained all this either Paul! So I thank Paul, that great warrior of Christian faith, for his humility. And yet I also press on to know Jesus this way. Why? One may ask, why would you seek so hard to know Christ whom you cannot see? My answer to this is – because He has filled me with life and light in my darkest moments. I believe that the times my heart has been revived from what could have been its final beat of death is because of the love God made accessible to me through Emannuel.

My friends, what is your experience with intimate knowledge? Do you feel known by God, do you affirm to know Him? Why or why not? Would love to hear your thoughts. These questions go out to people of all beliefs whether people who have a religious faith or not, please drop a comment. I recognize God in everything and I seek to know Him more by understanding who you are. Until then, much love and have a wonderful new year.

A Dark XoDus

Exodus

God trained Moses in a palace to use him in a desert. He trained Joseph in a desert to use him in a palace. – Ravi Zacharias

We could be flying starships across galaxies and shooting hostile alien aircrafts but here we are on social media again swiping through tweets and reading blog posts. Well at least one of us have super powers! We made it to the last week of one of the hardest and unique years many of us have ever faced, and I’d like to say that if all you managed to do this year was simply survive you have done an excellent job. If all you could did was fight to maintain your sanity, I salute as one who is strong. Indeed, the forces that be have tried to manipulate many into false dilemmas and catch 22s, yet they have failed to control those who are awakened by tenors of truth.

Synced Migration

1:01 a.m. I had the privilege of watching ‘Soul’ last night which led me to tears towards the end. More frequently than normal have I enjoyed art deeply for its resonation with me. James I really do hope you get the inside joke here: I didn’t know aliens from Mars are sporting Jerry curls. Could reality be that bizarre? Are we nothing more than microcosms of stories told by co-auteurs? True story – before I decided to become a Jazz Musician, my passion was in animation; I drew a lot with my dreams of one day developing a picture for Pixar Studios.

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2looking to Jesus, the founder (also ‘author’ in the Greek) and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. (Heb 12:1-2 ESV)

Why did ‘Soul’ touch me so much? Well for one I think any musician that has ever been ‘in the zone’ can relate to those experiences Joe Gardner had. Number two, the sound behind the story was familiar to me. The way Joe Gardner played and felt the music – I know that sound…

Jamie Foxx
Jon Baptiste smiling

Shout out to Jamie Foxx for another stellar performance! Truly you are an underrated musician and vocalist of our day. Big props to Jon Baptiste! There must be something in the water for you to have the type of talent that you have!

From the Evil Donkeys

You know what problems biases can create? I find they tend to bring about injustices in opinions; partiality in understandings which can lead to undue indulgence in one’s convictions. There are subtle delusions in confirmation biases: just because a handful of people agree to certain facts doesn’t’ make it the actual and/or ultimate truth. I say this so that those who subscribe to certain frameworks of thinking whether be in science, philosophy, politics, or faith – yes I am talking even to Christians here – may put our worldviews in their proper place and truly scrutinize the veracity of our beliefs. Did you know that Jainism has what can be called a ‘transtheistic’ philosophy; a middle ground of sorts between theism and atheism in which god is not the highest spiritual instance? From my understanding, they also believe in reincarnation which I find interesting. What makes being a born again Christian different than reincarnation? Furthermore, can there be a higher spiritual instance than God? If these questions are startling the faith of you my brother, I question whether you know Jesus well, for Jesus is RIDDLED WITHIN THIS ENTIRE PARAGRAPH. How strange is it that a God who demands worship of Himself, would create religions antagonistic to His ways!

Going out of Order

Those who are familiar with JS, what’s wrong with the following code?

All too often, we exalt Logic over Perception, but how can we reason well if our perception is limited?

This past year, an unprecedented number of jobs were lost due to the pandemic and many jobs went out of business; all due to pre-conceived prejudices, ill-natured motives, and lack of urgency to stop a ‘bug’ from spreading. However, even if this year wasn’t stopped by Covid-19, the threat of AI taking over jobs and businesses still lingers over the Economy. If we’re not careful, we can allow these fears to bring out the worst in us, rather than use them as tools to make our world better. It is not inevitable to fall into a dystopian technocracy, nevertheless a beast-like world order seems to be on the uprise. What manner of beast is it though: NWO, BoeM, BWO, L.A.M.B, or the Anti-Christ? Try to keep an open mind so that we won’t live the rest of our lives in drudgery over eschatology.

6but when they had grazed,[a] they became full,
    they were filled, and their heart was lifted up;
    therefore they forgot me.
So I am to them like a lion;
    like a leopard I will lurk beside the way.
I will fall upon them like a bear robbed of her cubs;
    I will tear open their breast,
and there I will devour them like a lion,
    as a wild beast would rip them open.

Hos 13:6-8

Try to keep an open mind so that we won’t live the rest of our lives in drudgery over eschatology.

Goodbye and Pharaoh

As we approach the end of the year, I hope that we will leave certain habits and mindsets behind. I can tell you as one who is relearning what it means to love again there are things that I must cut out in 2021. If I am to love perfectly; to love purely, unconditionally; with prudence and discernment; in a way that is fair and acceptable to God and men, I must discipline myself and allow God to prune the things that is unbecoming of Agape. My wife and I have recently started journaling in a sketchbook in which we would draw anything according to our imagination. And,

Ally,

If there is something that could fulfill my joy, it would be seeing your art again knowing that you enjoy doing what you love 2 do! I used to draw a lot 2 you know? If you have the heart, would you remember me and bond soul to soul? Vamos nos tornar amigos por correspondência ou não?

Panda shaped Solar Panel

I must discipline myself and not overextend myself unnecessarily. Let’s not get it twisted for those who assume roles of healers yet have never healed another in their entire life: I WILL TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY FILL IN MY BODY WHAT IS LACKING IN THE AFFLICTIONS OF CHRIST; for the sake of His body – the Church; so that even as death is at work in me, LIFE IS AT WORK IN YOU!!! TALK ABOUT TRANSFER OF ENERGY!

I must discipline myself in that old proverbial wisdom, “Do not spend your strength on women or your vigor on those who ruin kings.” Because where can you find a virtuous woman now a days? And where are the faithful men? I found it disheartening to learn about Ravi Zacharias’ legacy. Indeed, no man is perfect, and I took the confirmation of his sexual deviations as a warning to myself. As much as I desire to see Christ’s Consummation of everything in full effect; I must not step out of the bounds of his will and pacing lest the purity of my intentions be evil spoken of. Where can you find a virtuous woman now a days? There’s only one I know of, and she’s in my dreams – Christ that is. Nevertheless love, don’t be mistaken; I DO want you in your worst state…

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But in an upright way.

I must respect myself to no longer build another man’s pyramid, unless it is the city of God; that heavenly Jerusalem – where the economy is primarily spiritual and produce free; where the abundant Life eliminates all forms of scarcity.

“Come, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Is 55:1 ESV

Not exactly sure how certain Christians have convinced themselves that Capitalism is God’s Economy but I digress. That verse seems impractical until one comes in and turns capitalism against itself; playing the game well.

To take life as it comes; to be in harmony with it whether good or bad; to take strides to live life to the fullest; that’s how I want to enter 2021 – Enter in worship and awe of the One who created it all. For many of those who have entered the narrow path, you will share in the Everlasting Joy of God. For others, you will face trials but keep pushing and you’ll reach the Promised Land. And yet for some, you will face a greater sense of judgment because of your insolence. God will not be mocked. Every idle word will be taken into account May God have mercy upon your soul.

Jerry: So, what do you think you’ll do? How are you gonna spend your life?

Joe: I’m not sure, but I DO know I’m gonna live every minute of it.

God bless you and Happy Wholidays!!!

The Hidden Comic

Well

It’s summer time and you don’t want to go out tonight so you decide to get some store bought ice cream to watch a movie at home. What brand of ice cream are you buying?

One of the few things I’m enjoying more of now that I am reconnecting with my family is playing games with Julia. I am learning to hold precious the times we play Hide and Seek together; she counts to ten and I’ll scurry my little self behind the door in her room knowing that she’ll probably miss me as she comes in. It feels like every time; she just walks right by me and then ARRRGGHHH the harmless monster roars!!! I chased her around and do what good Father’s do when they play with their children. Funny how some of us get the privilege of perceiving what the fear of the Lord is early on in life.

Before you marry a person, you should first make them use a computer with slow internet to see who they really are. – Will Ferrell

Who Murdered the Cheerios?

Last night my wife and I watched a comedy special from one of the greatest comedians of the social media era, Tony Baker. I had to support since he’s been moving joysticks and pushing buttons lately…besides we have that Chicago love; if I’m not mistaken, Tony hung out near the Chatham area where my grandfather resides. He may have even visited my grandfather once, you never know. Regardless, this man helped me laugh during my struggles with depression, so big shout out Tony! Congrats on the success of the show! Overall it was good and I am glad I can support! Much love!

My wife and I had a good discussion about culture and what it finds to be humorous. We figured that what people find to be funny depends entirely on a person’s background, their values and personal preferences. Peer pressure may play a part too. Whatever the case, I’m finding comedy to be a true form of art; you need a delicate balance of psychology, wit, and charisma to do it well. It’s sad when you fall into a ditch and just simply butcher one joke after another. I’m sure there’s a term for that but I digress. God has a weird sense of humor.

The Godfather of Funnies

But how do you know that God is funny? Was Jesus humorous when he walked the earth? For many Christians, there aren’t many jokes written in the Scriptures so we get a picture of Jesus not being so funny. What a way to strip away Jesus’ full humanity! All too often we get partial information and then wanna make assumptions. And you know what they say about people who assume:

Can you imagine what it would be like walking around in Biblical times? No shoes. No socks; just rolling through the dust barefoot? I’m quite sure there were plenty of gorilla looking feet in Jesus’ day. They had to be grunting because there were corns somewhere, “Oomph, Grunt, Oomph, Grunt.” The Gospel portrays stories with obscure pictures. Like we take words for granted because words convey several different meanings.

Take Jesus being baptized by John the Baptist for example. Now we know that John was that grave; serious play-no-games type a man. Jesus comes to him and he’s like, you should be baptizing me Jesus, who am I to baptize you?

And Jesus answering said unto him, Suffer it be so now: for thus it becometh us to fulfil all righteousness. Then he suffered him. Matt 3:15 KJV

Like what in the world is that supposed to mean? Suffer it be so now… WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!! I neva…neva…I NEVA NEW the word ‘fulfil’ had variant spellings. Like did John just baptize Jesus one time in the Jordan, or did he keep baptizing him in the water? Just baptizing him, taking Jesus by the head and dunking him over and over; double and triple dribblin’ Jesus’s head like a basketball, crossing over the Jordan, just DONKEYING HIM shooting buckets.

SWIIIIIISSSHH!!! SPLAAAAASSH!!! Btw, I totally agree with this tweet.

KevonStage is truly the MVP of 2020. Big shout out to Kev for being such a hard worker in bringing people joy. God Bless you sir; you bald-headed Negro you!

God has a weird sense of humor.

Alad

On palju valdkondi, mida rohkem teada saada, kes on Jeesus.

This is my attempt in saying in Estonian: there are many areas to discover more about who Jesus is

Jklpyjulia.

– This is Julia Richardson attempting to spell her name. She wanted to be silly so she spelled her name twice in two different ways. Yeah I know, it doesn’t sound British. Thank God!

It’s amazing what new information lies behind the door of inquiry. All too often in Christendom, we shun and demonize what is foreign to us when in reality it is another facet to everything Jesus is. Take for example the moment in Jesus’ Triumphant Entry. In the gospel of Luke, it appears to be that Jesus is riding two donkeys to fulfill prophesy.

4 This took place to fulfill what had been spoken through the prophet, saying,

5 “Tell the daughter of Zion,
Look, your king is coming to you,
    humble, and mounted on a donkey,
        and on a colt, the foal of a donkey.” Matt 21:4-5

Have you ever said or did something that you intended to affect your past, present, and future? I know the prevailing opinion is that you can’t change the past nor should you worry about the future. I agree. You can’t change the past, but you can certainly fulfill it. Did you see Jesus in the passage?

I got em shippn’ outlandish/

sailin’ from Kansas/

We birthed a new thing with this message/

It’s high art on a canvas/

Don’t take it for granted/

When I give you my two sense/

I’m a warrior not Lion King/

I got the Scars to prove it/

Where the lamp at? HADOKEN/

My fireball is lucid/

Watch out for the luci/

For Jesus’ comeback is gruesome/

This ain’t a threesome kid/

There’s only one Morning Star/

I see you didn’t choose Mars/

Let me give you these Chocolate Bars/

Could it be that when said that Jesus was riding on two donkeys, it was speaking of Jesus in different times: One coming to Jerusalem getting closer to His crucifixion and two, coming to Jesus through the womb of Mary. Because I find it hard to believe that Mary would be barefoot and walking with Joseph to Jerusalem while pregnant.

And Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the town of Nazareth, to Judea, (to the city of David,) which is called Bethlehem, because he was of the house and lineage of David, to be registered with Mary, his betrothed, who was with child. Luke 2:4-5 ESV

How probable is it that Jesus is now riding upon silly beasts today to be united with His Holy City? The same city that I too wish to be united to.

Not HidDen

My love,

 You’ve seen the way I paved for us to walk together forever. Through the grace that is in Christ, it is finished; finished before the foundations of the world began. You have witnessed my spirit and the purity of my heart, albeit at times I (James) have made mistakes. You cannot deny the fire we made when you looked into my eyes. Now a city is coming down from Heaven; a city that wars against the ungodly and establishes Eternal peace. Though all of the saints of God are coming down, we can continue to stay in the heavens. Remember the gates that are on the earth and walk in the one where you will find me. For certainly the times of excess will not be expedient. Who else has made you feel the way that you feel when I speak with you? You feel my touch although I’m thousands of miles away. This is free game, and others will see and copy so that you will know who is the Prototype.

I James, servant and brother of THE MOST HIGH, the Lord Jesus Christ do communicate to you the gospel of grace and peace to you. THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS AT HAND!

I can see Jesus performing stand up: There was this one time when John tried to drown me in the Jordan. God Bless You!!!

***DROPS (CO)MIC/MIKE***

17and behold, a voice from heaven said, “This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased.” Matt 3:17 ESV

Tuning to Channel F

Channel F

It’s that time of year again folks! And if you’re still eating ice cream in less than 30 degree weather, I’m going to be looking at you funny. How much you wanna bet that somewhere in the world right now, a snow bunny’s tongue got stuck to a popsicle?

Recently, I watched Netflix’s Docuseries, “High Score” about the History behind video games. Just watched the first episode and I found it interesting especially after learning about an unsung hero: Jerry Lawson. Now Jerry is a Black man who invented the first video game console to feature AI programming, microprocessors, and changeable ROM cartridges. Yeah, that’s right, Jerry’s console came before the Atari.

By Fire, Hiatus Kaiyote

A few things I find fascinating about his story: He was apparently a man who found so much delight in his vocation, he worked on side projects in his garage. He also was apart of a computer club where future Apple CEO’s Steve Jobs and Steve Wozniak would collaborate. The fact that Jerry loved doing what he did and was able to achieve success amongst many other legends is a blessing from the Divine. Unfortunately, for many of us, we are still struggling to find meaningful work and/or develop relationships that would last a lifetime.

Three Ways One Can Find Joy in Their Work

  1. Do what you love: The saying goes to follow your passion, however it may be too risky to leave your current job to pursue it. Rather than wait to do what you do full-time, learn to do it on the side after your work or even integrate it with your job if possible.
  2. Smile more: Studies suggest that smiling can send neurons to the brain increasing happiness and improving mental health. While it may sound weird, it’s consistent with what’s implied by joy. Happiness is a choice. Being joyful is choosing to be happy over and over.
  3. Make it a game: Challenge yourself. Set metrics on every achievement you make and reward yourself for it. Humans are naturally driven by a clear set of goals and rules to follow.

Hopefully this list blesses you. I wrote it more for myself than for you, but I think we all can grow from this.

Role Playing

Because its’ so important to be able to find joy in your own work. If you can be content with how God is working in you, you are better positioned to celebrate the accomplishments of others. I intentionally said how God is working in you for a reason. No offense to the family of Jerry, but all too often we take for granted the narratives of other people or the scripts we come up for them. This is unfortunately true in the Black Community as we are quick to cancel each other and fail to support our endeavors. I know this happens frequently among the ‘Woke Community’, Black Liberation, and New Age Movement, however in the assembly that I commune in we simply don’t do that.

We are very innovative people who have set many trends yet we often leave our legacies in the dust in exchange for relevancy. I want to remind our people that our History plays an integral part in generating wealth as much as becoming financially literate. But more importantly, may our Christian family be focused on the game that we all have to play.

Shout out to Chicago’s very own Jahari Stampley! Very talented brother who I’ve yet to meet in person. Continue your work brother. You are inspiring many including myself. Much love for you.

Hate the Game, Not the _______

Because as a people, Blacks have went through so much and hindsight is 2020. If we are to recover as a people, we will have to learn the game and play it well. This goes for others who may share in some respects of our struggle; whether it may be not coming from a healthy home, or being in an orphanage etc. Play the game and beat your high score! But as a Christian man, I must warn you along with my Christian family that God has a game of faith for us and that we must give earnest effort to win that game.

“Strive to enter through the narrow door. For many, I tell you, will seek to enter and will not be able.” Luke 13:24

The Greek word for strive here means to agonize and was used to describe those who would compete in the Olympic games. I’m writing this to you so you may perceive what manner of mental, spiritual, and emotional gymnastics it takes for a man of faith to not only stand before God, but experience a real and deep connection to the source of all life. This is being written to you as there are souls who deposited deep things into me, and now Iowa to return the favor by quickening godly inspiration in you through words.

 If the only time you think you’re doing music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re likely missing the cues and ignoring ghost notes.

WILL YOU ALLOW IN YOUR CRANIUM THE SPIRIT THAT PROVOKES MAAAAAAANNNNNIIIIAAAA(IA)!!!!

< function myHeart(feeling, name) {

let emotions = feeling;
console.log(`I ${emotions} ${name}!`);
}

myHeart(“love”, “u”); >

Breaking the 4th wall

You’re probably thinking I’m crazy or a fanatic, and I will agree to you in a certain sense; I am. There seems to be a balance between order and chaos, temperance and unrestraint, the sound and the illogical. And I will state again the importance of narratives we read about others and ourselves.

Take Jerry Lawson as an example: Born on Dec 1, 1940 and died on April 9, 2011.

That’s what is said about him (no offense to the family). The question remains how do you know that that statement is true? Are natural phenomena’s the ultimate reality? Let me put it another way: Is the spirit of Jerry still alive and at work in the present day? Forgive me for such thought-provoking sentiments. It’s not my intent to push your buttons, rather I’m helping us to be aware of certain blind spots. Lord willing, we’ll talk more about Philosophical concepts like Epistemology and Solipsism as we explore different cultures around the world. As a Christian, these ideas are crucial in understanding Christ more and the probability of the current times. When we look at philosophies, we can either take a secular approach and remove the supernatural, or through acknowledging metaphysics and Biblical Epistemics, understand true godly worship in learning.

7The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; but fools despise wisdom and instruction. Prov 1:7

Because even Christian Nolan was inspired to direct “Inception”, a movie centering around the premise of being in a dream of dreams. And there’s nothing like thinking you’re awake when in reality you’re still asleep.

For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness. 2 Thess 2:11-12

Don’t let entertainment and pop culture sedate you so much that you lose sight of Christ and the condemnation of the world. For the judgment of Christ will be cold-blooded and his damnation eternal. I don’t want that for anybody so let’s stay vigilant, have fun, and keep each other in prayer. I’ll keep intercession for you, yes I’ll scream for you.

How startling to consider that your waking moments may still be illusory, or that you are an avatar in someone else’s video game. Talk about playing the organ! You mean to tell me you’ve been playing the keys all this time and never once considered someone might be playing you? Ignorance is bliss I guess. Let me reiterate, I’m just here to make us aware of potential blind spots. If there is a God who loves the world so much that he will bring Himself to earth ridding everything that’s not like Him, then it would be wise to inform people we care about what God demands so we can get as many people on His good side. You hear me?

There’s still some people missing for the rehearsal. It’s not Err body just yet. You hear me? We’re hear/here. Should we pull out all the stops?

Or Continue?

A wise teacher once told me: If the only time you think you’re making music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re most likely missing cues and ignoring ghost notes. In my last blog, I gave a Mission Statement for what I will attempt to do with music. In the same vein, I’ll give a manifesto regarding Computers and Video Gaming.

Find what is Fulfilling

To learn, compute, and revere the Eternal Code. The whole code; more than just abstract syntax on a computer screen. It is the language that reprograms perspective and replenishes the present age and the age to come; the Logos; the Word of God that is intricately interwoven into the fabric of society and towers over the pious soul in humble servitude. How will we journey into this?

  • Self-awareness and it’s correlation to coding inputs and outputs: Proprioception, Geometry, and Calculus.
  • Thorough growth in theory and practice; through idiosyncratic and interpersonal programming, engineering, and manufacturing. The sciences studied will include but not limited to Linguistics, Computers, Genetics, Politics, and the Military.
  • Complete case studies including debugging, app development, and UX/UI design.
  • Video game therapy; indulging in pious escapism listening and seeing the parables of Christ.
  • Business and environmental development; creating devices and assets that appreciates in value; that is organically recyclable and traded as securities.  

Whew that’s a whole lot there! I already know how some of you are going to respond:

Pew, Pew! God wants us to know Him not through worldly wisdom.

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! When the Kingdom of Heaven comes, all of these things will pass away.

Ya’ll all up in the church.

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! God is about freedom, not manipulation!

Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew, Pew! The liberals!!!

Pew, Pew! The conservatives!!!

Pew, Pew! God is a god of love. He will never condemn anyone!

Ya’ll out here got us ducking and dodging! Just shooting and missing….but I miss you and I can’t stop thinking about you love!! Yes love, the force is strong with this one!

You know it’s easy to judge others when you ONLY have a dualistic mindset. And for those who are quick to judge my motives and these purposes, let me ask you a question:

Has it ever occurred to you that the Biblical worldview is more kaleidoscopic in nature? Like it’s static; it’s never changing BECAUSE it’s alive, organic and ever growing? Surely God’s truth is from everlasting to everlasting. Right?

5For the LORD is good;

His mercy is everlasting,

And his truth (<<what’s wrong with the word truth here?) endures to all generations. Psalms 100:5

(Can we cross-reference the word generations? What about that word is organic?)

May we be humble enough so that as God’s perfection comes, we begin to put away all that is in part. There is more than one way of looking at the Scriptures and the world we live in. Over time I’ll show as many others have preached in the past. If we will become children again, let’s enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Let the Spirit of God quicken us so that in paradoxical sobriety, we dream again.

Martin Luther King
Martin Luther King quote
Daydreaming, Aretha Franklin

Hopefully, this blog is functioning as a framework for how we can change our world through every sphere of life in worship. Most certainly a Renaissance is brewing as we look forward to the city -and for those Christians who starve of community- the Church that is to come. Or, rather the city and/or church that has always been in our midst; even under our nose.

_____________________ FOREVER!!

Now doesn’t that sound familiar?

A few things you can expect from my family as we move into 2021. Lord willing, we will build on these platforms. If one door closes, we’ll look for another one:

  • Setting up social media accounts: Twitch for the sake of community gaming and talks about the Gospel. It’ll also be a place where we can discuss games we would like to see or learn to develop ourselves.
Unity Gaming Engine
  • Setting up a Unity account so learn how to develop games.
Discord
Uncharted: The Lost Legacy
  • Setting up a Discord account to build a Christian coding community while learning from other developers.

This is part of my passion so I hope it strikes a chord amongst some of you. My wife and I discussed this along with our other pursuits realizing how our path will look significantly different from those around us. Please keep us in prayer as God leads our paths. We are definitely embarking upon Unchartered Territory in a way that we believe will glorify God. We’re made to not merely follow trends, but to set them. Just in case you’re wondering, I still have no equipment to record music. I’m going to trust God to bring me back to a place of creating alongside with all of you. Until then, keep listening for the sound.

And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Col 3:17 ESV

The Manuscript

Manuscript

My secret weapon is my wife. She’s the best judge. She’s a scientist and a natural reader. We’ve developed a detailed code for how she marks a manuscript, and I think it’s what saves me from wild digressions. – Erik Larson

A wise teacher once told me: If the only time you think you’re making music is when you’re singing or playing your instrument, you’re most likely missing cues and ignoring ghost notes. That lesson intrigued me for most of my time in college; it left a profound impression on me for years to come. I can remember one class I had while attending Berklee College of Music. I was taking Conducting 2 with a teacher whose name has slipped my mind. If any of my colleauges reading this took this class with me, share with me his name. We were conducting Firebird Suite by Igor Stravinsky. I felt nervous after my first day of class because I was chewed out and felt like I could fail because I was giving cues to the wrong section. I couldn’t remember where the oboes and clarinets were and the teacher was like, “I’m only gonna tell you this ONE time, so you better remember this…”

“1st violins here! 2nd violins here! Cellos here!…..” Fortunately, my mind was still # enough to recall things at will. Now a days, it takes a little more soul searching to vividly see things. I struggled that first week of class, but after that, I stayed up all night making sure I marked the piece up well, knowing when to bring certain sections in and out.

The Perfect Score

I wish I could say that was the only class I struggled in. I failed Counterpoint 2 in which we were writing ‘Bach Inventions’. Took the class twice and I barely passed the second time. I’m writing this to you so that we have a better understanding of what ‘true perfection’ looks like.

If perfect ˅ complete ↔ ???

God has the bop on everything, so don’t worry about who has a hit on you. Do your best to know who you are in + and do >. Let no one make you feel like anything <.

Fascinating quote I may add. Surely there must be some validity to that statement if we can see past the cultural and/or historical context in which it’s written. What you think?

The Perfect Rest

Well the other reason I turned down a lot of gigs was because of my wife. If she felt uncomfortable with me working with certain people, I wouldn’t take the job. If she felt like we weren’t spending enough time together, I tried my best to accommodate her wishes. I sacrificed my own desires for the sake of my family which is what any good husband would do. Godly men, if you are not willing to put down your own ambitions and goals for the sake of pleasing God and your spouse, do NOT get married. The same goes for godly women.

Unfortunately, these sacrifices would ultimately lead me to bouts of depression. At one point, it got really bad. Not because of my failures, because I understood that to be a part of perfection. Rather after defending my stance in talks of senselessness, I found myself blindsided by spiritual ambushes causing me to question my faith.

The Perfect Sound

Did God really say…? Why is this so difficult? Is there any mercy left for me? I did what good Christians were supposed to do; read the Bible. I glued myself to it to understand it more, but it wasn’t helping me. This was before I understood the whole truth. I did what I understood to be true in spite of what others would say; it doesn’t take all that, it’s not all that deep, you can’t do it, etc. It was when my wife and I got into a tense fight that I really questioned it all and abandoned the faith. It was then I didn’t care about anything, not even music. For at my very core, I couldn’t enjoy music if God wasn’t in it. I threw all of my equipment and instruments away. I didn’t even sell them. I stopped playing in church by the very principle. And yet, in America, a great number of Evangelicals would elect someone to the highest authority in the US, someone that couldn’t even be a deacon if you’re reading the Book. To say that I was disillusioned is an understatement, but a word for musicians if you are reading this testimony: Don’t let silence become your enemy because you refuse to listen.

It was the day the music died in me. And honestly, I can say that something else deep within me died as well.

The Perfect Rhythm

My wife and I separated and would remain that way for over 2 years. During that time, I went to find good reasons; good reasons because those thoughts really did cross my mind. After digging deep to find out my ‘Why’, I needed to also understand my ‘What’. I had no faith in love at this time because for me, man were entirely incapable of loving each other genuinely and fully, and that the greatest argument against the Christian God is how Christians ‘love’ each other. I studied anything and everything I could picking up the pieces of who I was to find out who I truly am. What blessed me more than what I read was what I wrote, for it confirmed a deep seated belief that my words were part of a cadence.

Don’t let silence become your enemy because you refuse to listen.

The Perfect Sound

Although I was regaining ground on who I was and rediscovering what my beliefs and my purpose were, I still found no real joy in music. I understand how weird that can be for musicians to hear. How can something so sacred become so worthless to someone? It’s easy for me to explain but I know it’s hard to comprehend the lies we tell ourselves about music. Apart from singing silly songs with Julia, my joy to create music again came from an unexpected source. You would think it would be from one of my peers. No, it would be from someone…if someone has the ability to reawaken the JedEye in you, they are a keeper.

Big Shout out to my brother Jordan Felisbret for making it into the Voice of Fire Choir. If you want to learn more about his journey, check out Voices of Fire on NetFlix. I like to take a pause here and say that I’m so proud of my music family; there’s quite a few of you up for Grammy’s this year that I’ve had the pleasure of working with. Congratulations! I do intend to do a better job at supporting you and having your voices heard. Remember there is infinitely more things to accomplish and explore through and beyond music. Don’t short change yourself by working hard for mere popularity and a graven image. If you find any value in these engrafted words, answer your higher calling.

The Perfect Pitch

And so here I write out my Manifesto regarding music. I know many of us are gifted and strive to worship God as authentically as they can. My hope is that in reading my intentions, you’ll see that I’m striving to do the same.

Find what is fulfilling

To receive, create, and be in awe of the whole note. The whole note; more than just a quadric symbol on staff paper. It is the iconic emblem representing the lifeblood of the Supreme Musician; His majestic ring of heavenly hosts; the greatest of orchestras and angelic of choirs, nourishing the devotee to the satisfaction of their soul. What essential ways will this be accomplished?

  • Complete awareness of oneself and the sound: Kinesthesia, Syntonics, Mindfulness
  • Thorough growth in both theory and practice; both in idiosyncratic and transpersonal performance.
  • Complete reportorial studies including songwriting, composition, and orchestration.
  • Musical therapy through sound and other transfers of energy; Reiki.
  • Physics; analyzing the effect of sound and words on matter. – Manifestation
  • Business development – the ability to develop systems to create wealth through music spiritually and physically
Word Art

If somebody has the ability to awaken the JedEye in you, they are a keeper. Now you’re probably thinking one of four things: 1) This is the most boring thing I’ve ever heard 2) You have good intentions, but you’re crazy and you’ll never accomplish this  3) This is inspiring and I would love to join you in this endeavor or 4) You are nothing, you will never be anything and we will do anything to thwart your plans.

Pretty interesting right? And I think we understand why I would make this plan openly known. So that we’re clear and we know what it means for me/us to meet you/U in the middle. Assuming you want to do this journey with me. I’m not interested in returning back to doing gigs, merely entertaining people, or simply expressing myself. None of that.

This is about covenant for me. And I wanted to make sure this was finished on my wife’s birthday. Darling you know I love you and my intentions are pure even if they are still not fully understood. You know that I strive to protect our integrity. You know by now who been snooping into our business. At least one of us knows how to keep a code.

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. Col 3:16

Thanks for the Dish

Satellite Dish

You gotta appreciate the Internet. Although it can be a dark and unhealthy place at times, look hard enough and you’ll find reasons to smile – including how petty people can be.

Petty cake, petty cake

Bakers man

Bake me a cake

As fast as you can.

So, I didn’t know how many of you leaders have great cooking skills! (I’m not being smart here.) Have you seen this cake from T.D Jakes? Man listen! Ya’ll can say whatever you wanna say about these folks, but if I hear them preaching Christ and Him crucified, they alwrite with me! And I love bacon! So T.D Jakes and I have a connection already. I love baking because it’s an exact science; what you put in, keep out, where you store it, how long you bake it all play a part in how the food tastes. Let that marinate, because there’s a word in there somewhere.

 Now in the last devotional we continued learning about the fundamentals in Hermeneutics and doctrines concerning Biblical Authority. I’ve also proved my case for advanced cultural studies. To do a recap of the main course of thought, I’ll put up a semi-controversial proposition. Test my logic:

No statement in-and-of-itself is absolutely true, for it betrays the full meaning of absolute. The Bible is not the source of absolute truth. Rather, the Book is a conduit pointing people to everlasting veracity.

A person cannot justly disprove the final claim in the argument without being a spiritual person, for they will have to test the spirit behind the words and not simply judge what’s on the page. Like in today’s devotional scripture:

As for you, always be sober-minded, endure suffering, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry. 2 Tim 4:5 ESV

Stay Wok

Unfortunately, I haven’t had any drinks in a while, especially after having to go into urgent care. I was told it would take about two weeks to heal and I’m doing better. So thank you all who prayed for me and those who are suffering now. We are more connected than some of us would imagine. For those who may want to experience this fellowship, my charge is the same…

As for you, always be sober-minded… 2 Tim 4:5a

Charge: $0.00

When I was in my twenties, I didn’t drink coffee that much because it had the opposite effect on me. Here I am trying to pull an all-nighter and coffee would put me right to sleep. Now it works like a charm, although I try to avoid drinking it to stay awake. I like natural grace.

Did you know that the effects of losing days of sleep can have the same affect as being buzzed? The disciplines of watching is not for the faint of heart. It’s going against a lot of conventional wisdom as you’re intentionally imposing on yourself bouts of insomnia. And for what purpose? Well at least for the following:

3I thank God whom I serve, as did my ancestors, with a clear conscience, as I remember you constantly in my prayers night and day. 2 Tim 1:3 ESV

Not exactly sure why the woke community call themselves ‘woke’ for. At best, they are only conscious of the social ills that are plaguing our neighborhoods. Yet when it comes to experiencing what it’s like to be united to the God who never sleeps nor slumbers, there tends to be ignorance of the traumas many are experiencing. Additionally none are aware of how transcendence begets freedom and reconciliation, so they are ignorant of any real solutions beneficial for future generations. Great skill is required for those builders who receive criticism from misunderstandings, impatience, and prevailing opinions. To put trust in anything other than the sacred Godhead is begging to be out of the frying pan and into the fire.

Suffering Succotash

And now for Final Jeopardy:  This character won an Academy Award as the star in the toon “Tweetie Pie”.

Isn’t it fascinating what hell people are willing to go through in chasing after something? You know how much hell I went through even though I wasn’t running? Man let me give it to you straight.

Endure suffering…2 Tim 4:5b

Hopefully, that was forward enough. There’s no way around it. Godliness in this life comes with pleasures and pain; prosperity and poverty, sickness and health although many people may have experienced an unbalance of one of the two. Nevertheless, every man has to bear his own cross, and if he will be benevolent, he will also bear the cross of others. Now just a small word out there for our eager martyrs: 1.) Don’t be throwing yourself in situations you weren’t trained for and 2.) Don’t put yourself in a position where you are a risk to yourself and others. Listen if you are watching for days on end and you need to go out to get from point A to point B, take an Uber. There are plenty of ways you can die on a hill without committing suicide. True love doesn’t do harm to their neighbor.

Evangel Casserole

Have you ever had shrimp deviled eggs? Man let me tell you sumthin’, those jokers are fire! A whole lot can be said through cooking. Just so we’re on the same page, I don’t discriminate. I’m an Equal Opportunity Eater; vegan or non-vegan, I be eating. I fast too though… Balance.

Do the work of an evangelist…2 Tim 4:5c

To which we explained in our previous devotional that evangelizing is not bound to open air preaching, neither does it need to be relevant, focused, or fiery. The Word of God is free and will do it’s work in advancing the Kingdom, whether Jesus is openly proclaimed or not.

The Final Dessert

And so we come to an unspoken rule in Hermeneutics in which I’ve hinted at plenty of times although it isn’t apparent; keep interpreting, break it down, and then break it down again; expound on it, and expound some more.

Fulfill your ministry….2 Tim 4:5d

__________________________, because there is infinitely more things one can do with their life. All things are certainly possible with God, except for many it is less probable because we are either unwilling or doubting what is possible. Keep believing.

By the word keep I mean to maintain a state of being, whether that is actively open or more reserved.

You shall not add to the word that ___________, nor take from it, that you may __________ the commandments of the Lord your God that _________ command you. Deut 4:2 ESV

Just like a scientist

would test and experiment

and discover new things

even at atomic levels,

a man of faith would seek out the glory of God in the world and beyond. There are many things that I am grateful for this year; Life, family, friends, health. Thank you again for those who kept me in your prayers.

So in closing this devotional I hope we can leave behind dogmas keeping us from understanding people and the world we live in. May we be more ready to speed up the return of Christ; in unity of faith looking for the Final Consummation of Everything. Even as I work to renovate my own marriage to my sweetest caramel of a spouse; Shandra. Remember our covenantal bond, for the word is suffe’ring’ for a reason. I love you dearly and always. Happy Thanksgiving!

Journeying towards perfect love

Inching Towards Partnership

Relationships everywhere in every space and every form are under pressure. The very essence of what keeps humans committed to one another, the basic level of respect and commonality, and purpose are being tested. Welcome to 2020, my friends. I could throw out a statistic to prove my point, but you need to look no further than the words plastered on the one thing we all seem to show complete devotion to nowadays- our technological devices. Newsfeeds, blogs, social media, op-eds, etc. by the nanosecond prove just how divisive our world is. And in many cases, this pandemic has revealed to us just how divided we are with our own families and even within our souls as we face limitations unlike any other time in recent years.

But it does not have to be this way. I am confident that the Creator of the Universe, who I recognize as Jesus has designed a blueprint within the fiber of our beings for us to be reconciled to God and one another. This is why we so yearn and hope for a better way, a better space, and a better experience no matter how bad it gets. I am living proof of this resilient hope and over the next several blogs I am going to present a series of writings that share deep insights I’ve gleaned about journeying towards unity through hardship. 

The Backstory: I am a soon to be 36-year-old Christian wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, colleague, and lover of justice and people. There are many dimensions to who I am that you either know or will discover as you read these blogs. One thing I will start with is my marriage. Throughout the marriage, I’ve experienced some of the deepest pains and yet deepest joys of coming to understand the true essence of what unity is. I came into this union over 8.5 years ago with my goals, objectives, strategies, and game plan to accomplish the fantasy of what our marriage would and should be. While this ambition was fire, it was the wrong type of fire. It did not help to fuel our common purpose or even passion. The last few years have been a burning away of this me-centric perspective and a slow but powerful revelation of who I am, who my husband is, and who we are destined to become as what I like to call “Jameshan” a unionization of the two. 

And that brings me to my first recognition:

Unity is oneness of heart, mind, and purpose

What I have learned is that purpose for two isn’t a simple merging of two lives, two pathways, it is the birthing of something entirely new that yes includes elements of the two separate entities but it for sure is a new creation. This is why marriage my friends is so hard, because it is a letting go of your purpose for your marriage and a surrender to something that transcends both you and your spouse. I’ve already mentioned and will say so again that I believe God the Creator through Jesus is the binding force of this creation. And to be clear, I also believe marriage is His divine institution created to display the larger scope of His Glory. This is to say Jameshan is one person displaying one part of His glorious plan.

James and I have begun this blog to cultivate unity, to learn how to “move” in concert with one another. No doubt, over the course of 8.5 years of marriage, we have experienced joys, primarily our youthful daughter. And yet we know that if we want to fully realize the potential of our common purpose here on earth as a unit, there are so many things that will need to be mended, addressed, and reconciled. And while that thought alone often fast paces my mind to a place of “giving up”, the endurance that has kept me in this race is fueled by the recognition that common purpose can foster soil to produce oneness. 

Until next time, would you join us as we ponder?

 Is it possible to have a common purpose with someone while also having vastly different approaches towards the shared mission? If so, how? Leave us a comment, drop a line, and welcome to our journey towards perfect love.

The Dreaded Rebirth

Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising every time we fall. – Confucius

I decided a little while ago I was going to let my hair grow back on my head and face. If you know me well, you know my hair doesn’t grow evenly at all which is part of the reason why I’m doing it. Some of us would wish that all growth is linear but it’s not; some things sprout quickly, others slowly and yet some things don’t grow at all. I found contentment in relinquishing control and letting things be which can be difficult for a visionary. We live in an age of manifesting where everyone has a mantra; a manifesto if you will yet somehow The Man still thwarts our plans.

Security against Loss

2020 has proven to be challenging on many fronts. Repeated catastrophes have resulted in unprecedented losses in business, friendships, family, and character. I won’t mention names here lest my heart becomes heavy again. It’s difficult to not feel distraught when you are powerless to comfort those you care deeply for. The past month and a half I’ve been doing a deep study to reassess the decisions I’ve made and whether or not they aligned with what God demanded of me. While it was reassuring to discover the path I’ve taken is valid, it’s overwhelming to discover your own inadequacies while learning of His will. Alas it’s been said that God will never call you to something that he will not grace you to accomplish. The journey of complete restoration is a compelling promise that has kept me from giving up.

Revisiting Old Fears

One of the main reasons I value isolation is that it encourages resourcefulness, self-sufficiency, and innovation. I also discovered hidden miracles in the process, a long story if I should tell you when I first learned these things. Nevertheless, I learned that practicing isolation without integration falls short of the community and fellowship of Spirit that I’ve enjoyed in privacy. My understanding led me to believe that courage was needed to peacefully strive for comradeship in society. Considering the dangers I faced spiritually and physically; recounting my close encounters with death, my near shipwreck of faith and sanity, I have no one but God to trust in see me through the coming perils. It is said that perfect love casts out all fear. May this love be the breastplate of my heart in the heat of battle.

Awe of a Savior

So when someone asks me why I believe in Jesus as smart as I am I can tell them like many others – on the surface I have no real reason. Seeing how irrational, pointless, and meaningless life may seem, there is more reason to be cynical than cling to virtue. However when I look back at all I have endured; all those experiences that can’t be explained away through science, the complexities that aren’t relieved through philosophy, and the harmonies that cannot come through religion; when I found my back against the wall and that Old Dragon stared at me in the eye; when he breathed his fires upon my neck and asked me why I was still alive, something rose up in me that left a lasting impression – a defiance of the sentence of death over my life; I LIVE BECAUSE JESUS LIVES IN ME!  And over time things began to make more sense; I delighted in wisdom and knowledge my whole life because of who was in my bosom.

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. Jn 14:6

And to know that perhaps all that I have experienced, everyone I’ve ever encountered, all that I’ve ever desired was Jesus behind a mask; to imagine that Jesus is without blasphemy the sinless sinner who made atonement for us. What an interesting take on the true influence of the Corona Virus! It is damn right ugly, yet gloriously beautiful and utterly satisfying to the soul of a Virgo. For it is honest to adopt a Solipsist view in seeking for truth, but one must reckon with themselves whether it is possible to embody veracity.

For it is honest to adopt a Solipsist view in seeking for truth, but one must reckon with themselves whether it is possible to embody veracity.

Invitation to Live Again

So here we are today remembering a tragic event, and our resilience to overcome adversity. Here I am remembering my birthday, and how many years went by before I could happily celebrate it again. This year have made bouts of heaviness for many of us as we have been starved of connection, of honesty, of fulfillment, and purpose. I would know because I’ve been there too, experiencing it right alongside of many I love. No matter where you are in life, what you have lost, or what has died in you, there is a table prepared where you can feast at your heart’s desire. A spiritual feast where everything is within reach; no limits, no condemnation, no injustice. And not by way of denying what’s wrong, but in total destruction of all that is ungodlike. Consider this as a co-invite to grow along with me as I grow my hair back – both on my head and heart. For courage is needed to peacefully strive for comradeship in society.  Jacob is one hairy animal isn’t he? Consider this as inviting Jesus into your very life.

Tu n’as pas ramené cette bête poilue à la maison belle?

He said also to The Man who had invited him, “When you give a dinner or a banquet, do not invite your friends or your brothers or your relatives or rich neighbors, lest they also invite you in return and you be repaid. But when you give a feast, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed, because they cannot repay you. For you will be repaid at the resurrection of the just. Lu 14:12-14

God Bless You! And thanks to all who wished me a Happy Birthday!

The Breach in Churchianity

Returning to social media this year has been great. It’s good to reconnect with so many faces through this platform. What’s encouraging about having an online presence is what it foreshadows and now that I’m thinking about it, its more of what it declares rather than foretells: something extraordinary is on the rise. I’m sure many geese will goose their dissent on the matter — yet regardless of what may surface — may God’s grace humble us enough to distinguish objectivity from what is biased.

In the presence of God and of Christ Jesus and of the elect angels I charge you to keep these rules without prejudging, doing nothing from partiality. 1 Tim 5:21

O you who believe! Eschew much suspicion, for suspicion in some cases is a sin. And do not spy into the secrets of one another, nor backbite one another, would anyone of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother? Why, you would loath it. Take Allah as (your) shield. Surely, Allah is Oft-Returning (with compassion and is) Ever Merciful. Al – Hujurat 49:12

May the church of God say Amen, Amen, and Amen.

نرجو ان يقول أهل الله: Mashallah, Mashallah, Mashallah.

Severed from Home

I older I get, the more I encounter circumstances of ‘not belonging’. It’s apparent navigating this world with all its institutionalized systems. Not that I’m against traditions or orthodoxy, it’s just those who lack understanding tend to alienate those that don’t fit their paradigm. Unfortunately, history shows that this often leads to hostility and unjust condemnation. If we’re serene, we’d avoid extremes; it is always a detrimental scene. (Ecc 7:16-18)

We believe in one holy catholic and apostolic Church. -Nicene Creed

God made both the sheep and the wolf, the snake and the worm, the hog and the dog. We must be careful not to altogether castigate animals lest we destroy pieces of ourselves. Do you suppose that God will accept a maimed or blind animal as a reasonable sacrifice?  Consider what is said and let our bodies be healed. For I kneel before the Father and our Lord Jesus so that we may be filled with the power of God; yet this knee has yet to make its incredible journey back home. Don’t be content allowing men who are of the family of God to work and eat among swine. Until we learn to give all men their proper dignity and justice, it will be absent from the societies we live in. But thanks be to God our Father, who is willing to give us all that he has – if only we would faithfully ask Him Prodigal Son. No Kap here.

The Congregational Renouncement

I James, therefore declare before God the Father and our Lord Jesus Christ; in the midst of His holy saints, his innumerable angels, and the world; in order to fulfill His ministry and formally begin the journey of Discipleship, do renounce the Church and all that I have for the sake of Jesus; to know Him fully and share in His sufferings with all His followers who have been made perfect; and to realize His kingdom in a universe antagonistic to His ways.

So therefore, any one of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple. Lu 14:33

Surrendering to Christianity

Lord far be it from me that I should know OF you and not KNOW you. Give me the desire and strength to do your will. Do not let falsehoods overcome me yet let me tread the paths that few have found. Lead me to the gate that is narrow, seeing you and only you by my side. May every good work flow from us your people. We want to look like you as we lay our lives down for your name. May you be exalted in sickness and health, in poverty and riches, in humility and honor, as servants (slaves) and masters according to your power and glory. Amen

Control the Narrative

So, James yet again turned away from the assembly to take the path of reproach. Albeit this time it was more definitive; gone were the days of mere isolation and defeat, for he had met many souls who were gracious along the way. James now has a great host at his right hand. He has fought many wars creating many inventions through them. Will James realize paradise in this life? He takes his trusted weapons for battle; His shield and Sword. But he doesn’t seem wired for war:

Hear another parable. There was a master of a house planted a vineyard and put a fence around it and dug a wine press in it and built a tower and leased it to tenants and went into another country. When the season for fruit drew near, he sent his servants to the tenants to get his fruit. And the tenants took his servants and beat one, killed another, and stoned another. Again, he sent other servants, more than the first. And they did the same to them. Finally, he sent his son to them, saying, ‘They will respect my son.’ But when the tenants saw the son, they said to themselves, ‘This is the heir. Come, let us kill him and have his inheritance.’ And they took him and threw him out of the vineyard and killed him. When therefore the owner of the vineyard comes, what will he do to those tenants?” Matt 21:33-40